My mini-meltdown last Thursday has gotten me thinking about fear and persistence in my life.
Joining up with Amanda for Thinking out Loud.
Therapy Thoughts: Fear
You see, my greatest fears in life revolve around disappointment (specifically, disappointing others) and being correct (having the right answer, the right information). If I say something incorrect and it results in disappointing others…. well, then, excuse me while I go hide in a cave.
Last week was different. Last week, I found myself caught between fear, anxiety, depression, and hope. But fear was proved to be the driving force.
A long time ago (wow, I wrote that HOW MANY years ago?), I wrote a post on the difference between fear and excitement. The premise being (since we all know you are not going to go back and read that post, though it is a good one and a nice little window into my soul) that fear and excitement are very similar, but fear is associated with something that might cause you harm, while excitement rather deals with the unknown.
Anxiety is a bit caught in the middle (between the unknown and harm) but also on the complete other side (between the known and technically harmless). For example, I have anxiety about the fact that I don’t make enough money, even though I have substantial savings and sufficient income. But I also have anxiety about the fact that I have no idea if we will be able to have a child, or what having that child would do to me. Also, it might demolish said savings.
I will 100% admit right now to feeling fear.
Sometimes, you have to feel the fear, let it grab you and swing you through the air and make you break down in tears, just so that you have the pleasure of standing back up, giving it the middle finger, and proclaiming that you are going to carry on anyway, dammit.Feel the fear, gird your loins, and carry on #shepersisted #IamEmpowered #sweatpink Click To Tweet
And if you are having a tough time with that? Grab a glass of win, a handful of Starbursts, and cut your hair off.
If you have something in your heart that you know to be true, it is time to demonstrate “firm or obstinate continuance in a course of action in spite of difficulty or opposition.” (Merriam Webster)
Nevertheless She Persisted.
What do you know in your heart of hearts to be true? What is challenging that truth? What is in the way?