Do you ever feel like you are a small fish in a big pond? Even if you do, you are still entitled to your little fish family. Join the discussion as I explore some of my therapy thoughts.
If you couldn’t tell from my post last week with regards to the infertility warrior label or title, I have been dealing with feelings of impostor syndrome and insecurities with regards to my place in the world. I think this is natural as I find myself in this transitional period in my life. I have spoken of my feelings of guilt, fear, and regret, my insecurities when it comes to my failure and rerouting of my career path.
I’ve always struggled to know my place in the world. I’ve always felt like I needed a place in the world.
Small fish in a big pond.
The other night, Alex and I watched Finding Dory, and, with fish on the brain, I went to therapy. That Coldplay song “Lost.” I have a visceral memory of playing that song very, very loudly at a horse show during a particularly heavy moment. Long story short, there were a few people there who always seemed to get what they wanted, never seemed to care how us “little people” felt. They were the big fish. So I used to sing:
You might be a big fish in a little pond
Doesn’t mean you’ve won
Cause you know they’ve found a bigger one.
Coldplay + Dory = Susie gets fishy with her metaphors.
I still struggle with my place, with what this all means, what is the point of what I am doing?
But I was sitting in therapy, and suddenly, I said, “I may be a small fish in a big pond, but I am still deserve my own little fish family. My little fish family loves me, and I love them back. And they are the most important. My fish family contributes to the larger story.”
You might be a small fish, in a larger pond, but that doesn’t mean that you don’t deserve your little fish family. Because your world directly around you–that is your story. And your story, your life, is part of a larger ecosystem. Do your best for your little family so that you can contribute your best to the larger ecosystem.
Because your little fish family matters. Just like your vote. It may seem insignificant, but it matters.
Swim on, my friends. Swim on.You might be a small fish in a big pond, but you deserve your fish family #mentalhealth #happiness… Click To Tweet
Who can relate? Have you ever struggled with these feelings?
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