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Positives and Big Fat Negatives

In the world of fertility, a positive pregnancy test is a BFP or “Big Fat Positive.” I didn’t get one of those this weekend. But there were positives nonetheless.

This was not my easiest weekend. But I’ve had worse, others have had worse, we will survive, we are resilient.

Friday morning, after a canceled coffee date, I decided to declare Friday as my weekend instead of waiting for the weekend itself. That meant second breakfast an hour after first breakfast and a nap at 9:30. I ended up having a change of plans for dinner as well–Tiffy needed to reschedule by a day, so I made a Whole Foods stop for salad bar and ice cream on the way home. Happy St. Paddy’s Day, I’m wild. 

I watched When Harry Met Sally (I’d seen all the of the bits and pieces, but never all the way through), which I had saved to the DVR over the holidays, and then I slept on the couch with the dog because Alex wasn’t home.

Saturday

… was supposed to be a work day but instead became a food day. Then again… what day isn’t?

The day started with some time with Ridley at the dog park and then a walk downtown for the Windy City Bloggers Brunch at Davanti Enoteca! I met some lovely ladies, and we got to try some true standouts from the menu.

I got the Frittata Bianca, an open faced omelet with spring veggies and arugula, and we sampled tons of different dishes! Everything was so tasty!

To finish off the meal, the managers gifted us all with Glazed and Infused donuts! It was a blind grab, and I DEFINITELY won the day with the triple chocolate, which I split with Tiffy that night. Holy crap was it rich! But amazinnnnng.

Now, for the banana drama. What did I do with those ripe naners? I stopped by a few stores on my way home and picked up a few necessary baking supplies, and then I got home for some kitchen therapy. 

Drumroll…. I went basic and made Banana Bread Muffins. But you know that I didn’t make an standard banana bread muffins… I Suz-ified those suckers. I messed up a little bit on my recipe, but I like them even more than if I had stuck to my original plans! The result is a muffin that is so perfectly balanced–just sweet enough, but still hearty and satisfying, and right for any time of day. I wasn’t planning on sharing the recipe, but I think that I have to! 

I made two versions: one with walnuts, the other with chocolate chips. There are a few subtle differences in the batters as well, and I am obsessed with them both. I had planned to give some away… that ain’t going to happen!

That night, Tiffy and I hammed it out. We were both in a bit of a weird mood, and I think we both just needed to get it out. Basically, we went to therapy. And played with Ridley. 

Sunday.

Well. They say that not every day is good, but that there is good in every day. That is pretty much the definition of Sunday.

Positives: I slept most of the way through the night. I didn’t explode my oatmeal. I somehow timed my morning perfectly for the bus. I was in and out of the doctor in probably 5 minutes. The weather was gorgeous for my walk back. 

Major positive: I got to talk to my mom on my way back, and she made me feel much better about how I am feeling right now–my ADHD struggles and her own fears during her own infertility, to name a few. I finished the walk and the talk feeling like a human again, and, dare I say it, ready to do some work.

Positive: some good work and organization at Starbucks, a successful grocery shop for the rest of the things that we need. And a chocolate chip banana muffin πŸ˜€

These Healthy Chocolate Chip Banana muffins are my favorite! Gluten free, high in fiber and protein, and the perfect healthy snack or breakfast! @suzlyfe suzlyfe.com

I got the call about my test results as I was eating lunch. My reaction? Keep eating.. and then start to cry. Talk to Alex, tell him I just needed a moment, we hang up. I finish eating. It was more survival than anything. 

More than anything, we are just sad. I will probably go a bit more into my thoughts (as well as what NOT to say to someone right after they have found out they got a BFN) at a later time, but I want to focus on the positives. 

After I talked to Alex a second time (this time a crying mess), Ridley deposited herself in my lap and sat licking the tears off my face. 

Positives: Later that afternoon, I took Ridley out for a little run, then returned her to our apartment and went for a run for myself. It was a gorgeous day. I felt fine, though I am sure I ran slower than molasses. I ran down to my point, and a lovely lady took my picture against the skyline. There were no tears, no music, just thoughts.

Thoughts that while I am happy for every run, I never thought that I would be sad to be allowed to run. Thoughts of the positives of my day. Doubts for the future of my infertility journey. At one point, I somehow got “Oh Canada” stuck in my head. No idea where that came from (I don’t remember the song that it supplanted). 

By the time I came back from my run, I knew that I would be okay until Alex came home, so I called Mom off of high alert (she was about to fly up–a major positive to have a mother who loves you so much). 

I spent the night with beer and pizza, ice cream, doggy cuddles, and documentaries.

There ARE positives in every day, even when you get a Big Fat Negative #infertility #ttc Click To Tweet

I’m not optimistic usually, and especially not right now. But, I’m trying to stay positive. I have amazing support from family, friends, and doctors. Thank you to everyone who reached out to check in, and thank you to those who contribute to the positives in my life.

Thank you, reader, for reading, and I hope that you had a fantastic weekend and a kickass week!

Looking for a Meatless Monday Recipe? Try my Baked Kale Falafels until I get you all that muffin recipe. 

Let’s start the week off with positives from the weekend! Lay them on me!

Banana Nut or Chocolate Chip Banana? Do you like muffins that are sweeter or more balanced?

Thank you to Katie for Marvelous Monday.

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107 Comments

  • Reply Carla

    My heart dropped when I saw this news on Sunday. And you know me πŸ™‚ I do agree with not every day being a good day but they’re being good in every day but sometimes we do need to stop pause and wallow for a bit as only then can we move forward.
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    March 20, 2017 at 5:07 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      And that is what is going on.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:57 pm
  • Reply Renee

    Oh Susie, I don’t have the right words for you but know that I’m thinking of you and sending you all the best vibes the universe has to offer. ❀️❀️❀️ And I need you to come bake for me that banana bread looks delicious! Love ya girl! ❀️❀️❀️
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    March 20, 2017 at 5:22 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      That is all you need to say. Love you!

      March 22, 2017 at 2:57 pm
  • Reply Christina @ montessoriishmom.com

    I was so sad to read your news and am inspired that you’re focusing on the positives, while still making room for your feelings about everything. My mom is the best too, she always makes me feel better and is so incredibly selfless. I hope you have a happy Monday!
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    March 20, 2017 at 5:43 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Well, I made it through monday. Likely thanks to my mom!

      March 22, 2017 at 2:56 pm
  • Reply Heather @Lunging Through Life

    <3 <3 <3
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    March 20, 2017 at 5:44 am
  • Reply Lisa @ Mile by Mile

    I was so sad to see this yesterday. I’m glad you were able to run after you found out the news. Keep doing what you can to stay positive. Glad you have such a good support system!
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    March 20, 2017 at 5:53 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      So am I. What would I do without them!

      March 22, 2017 at 2:54 pm
  • Reply Katie @ Journey Thru 30

    Thinking of you and sending you SO much love, positive vibes, and hope!
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    March 20, 2017 at 5:54 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, Katie. I really appreciate it.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:53 pm
  • Reply Cora

    Oh Suz. I don’t know what to say. Life is so hard and does not deal easy hands to deserving people. But, yes, we are going to focus on the positives. Banana chocolate chip muffins are my favorite and I’m so excited to see what special ingredient you have suz-ified them with. Balsamic vinegar and bbq sauce?! I think you would have loved the cocktail I splurged on this week. It was just a bit fruity, not very sweet, and had this frothy topping made of egg whites that did not move the whole drink down. I’m clinking all my drinks to you!!
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    March 20, 2017 at 6:10 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Where was I went you were drinking this????

      March 22, 2017 at 2:53 pm
  • Reply Megan @ Skinny Fitalicious

    When I saw your Instagram, my heart immediately ached for you. Sending you love friend!
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    March 20, 2017 at 6:10 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, darling. I so appreciate it.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:52 pm
  • Reply Gretchen

    I’m so, so sorry to hear this Susie πŸ™ You and Alex are strong people and can make it through this. Thinking of you <3
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    March 20, 2017 at 6:17 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thanks, Gretch. We will definitely need each other in this.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:52 pm
  • Reply jennifer

    Awww, damn . . . that’s all I can think of to say about that. Virtual hug and I am not even a hugger πŸ˜‰ BTW, LMAO about the not exploding oatmeal — that is a total WIN!
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    March 20, 2017 at 6:18 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Seriously, I don’t know why, but I keep doing it.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:51 pm
  • Reply Deborah @ Confessions of a mother runner

    My heart feels for you Suz. I can not even imagine how difficult this whole process is. You have an amazing support system and I am always blown away by your ability to stay so positive.
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    March 20, 2017 at 6:29 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Sometimes it is me convincing myself. I think that it is, this time. Thank you Deborah

      March 22, 2017 at 2:51 pm
  • Reply Amy

    Well that stinks. It really does. Of course, I’m sorry to read this but I also want to say, it’s okay to be sad, and angry and sad some more.

    I didn’t go through IVF but I want to say that just because you started down this road sharing your journey on the blog. You can always change your mind about that. I hated how public my life was when I was pregnant. Everybody knew what was going on and felt like they could be involved. Ugh.

    I’m sorry this time didn’t work. Big hugs!

    March 20, 2017 at 6:35 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, Amy! I have a feeling it will get less public as we continue down the road, but right now I need the therapeutic aspect of it. But thank you for that point–you are so right.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:50 pm
  • Reply Jen

    Girlfriend, so sorry to hear about the negatives! Big hugs and prayers your way! I’m so glad you were able to find positives in the weekend. And those muffins look amazing! Banana bread anything is always delish in my book! πŸ™‚
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    March 20, 2017 at 6:42 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      And these were fantastic! I got to make something this weekend, at least!

      March 22, 2017 at 2:49 pm
  • Reply Dietitian Jess

    Sending big hugs <3 <3 <3

    March 20, 2017 at 6:46 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Love me some big hugs.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:48 pm
  • Reply Wendy@Taking the Long Way Home

    I’m so sorry to hear your news.

    Running got me through that journey…running gets us through a lot of journeys…
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    March 20, 2017 at 6:49 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thanks, Wendy. So do sandy beaches!

      March 22, 2017 at 2:48 pm
  • Reply Bri

    Such a great attitude my friend. Thinking of you πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ
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    March 20, 2017 at 7:09 am
  • Reply Linda @ Veganosity

    One big hug to you. xoxo
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    March 20, 2017 at 7:11 am
  • Reply Sara

    I am so sorry Susie! My heart broke when I heard your news. Lots of hugs and love!
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    March 20, 2017 at 7:19 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you girl. On to the next, I guess.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:46 pm
  • Reply Amy

    That picture of you running with the skyline is AMAZING! (The donut one is not so bad either!) I don’t know what to say about your sad news. I was rooting for you. I’d probably want to be distracted, so here goes: what do you order when you’re working in Starbucks? I’m currently obsessed with any drink that has lots of foam! And really like the cinnamon almond milk macchiato.
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    March 20, 2017 at 7:19 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You know what? I’ve never had a macchiato. If I’m being good, a decaf Americano with some dark roast. If I’ve been good, but it is cold, a decaf gingerbread cappuccino. If I’ve been good but it is hot, decaf coffee frapp with chocolate powder. πŸ˜€

      March 22, 2017 at 2:46 pm
  • Reply Laura @ This Runner's Recipes

    My heart aches for you <3 Sending hugs. I'm glad you were able to get in a good thoughtful run and some puppy cuddles to help.
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    March 20, 2017 at 7:25 am
  • Reply Julie @ Running in a Skirt

    Oh Susie. That really, really sucks. I’m so sorry. Hugs your way.
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    March 20, 2017 at 7:26 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thanks Lady. I know you understand.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:44 pm
  • Reply Jamie

    I love you. I’m not going to say much more than that because I said a whole lot yesterday, but I am amazed at your positives and you slow as molasses job and your heart. I’m going to make banana muffins in your honor today and I’m going to wait for that post on what NOT to say, because there needs to be one.
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    March 20, 2017 at 7:31 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Collab post? Thank you so much for everything, Jamie.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:44 pm
  • Reply Heather @ Polyglot Jot

    I’m sorry, Susie. There’s nothing I could say but just know that I’m praying for you.
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    March 20, 2017 at 7:49 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, Heather. I really appreciate it.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:43 pm
  • Reply Danielle @ The T-Rex Runner

    I’m so sorry to hear this and you have every right to feel the wide range of emotions that you do. Your ability and willingness to focus on finding the silver lining is really inspiring, especially in such a tough situation.

    Unrelated – I don’t even like donuts, but that one is calling my name. DAMN.
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    March 20, 2017 at 7:55 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Even if you just ate the top πŸ˜€
      I’m trying to stay positive. Even if it is just to convince myself.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:43 pm
  • Reply lindsay Cotter

    I want to reach through and hug you. Cause I know you hugging can cure. But also, just to be there with ya. You are so strong for others, so we are here for you. Keep that big fat positives! xxoo
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    March 20, 2017 at 7:57 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thanks, Linds. xoxoxo

      March 22, 2017 at 2:42 pm
  • Reply kat

    There really aren’t any words that we could say to make you feel better, which is why I’m so glad that you are trying to focus on the positives. I can’t truly understand what you are going through as I’ve never experienced it myself, but I do hope you know that you aren’t alone and that you have a huge support system behind you. It took my sister 10 years to have a child – and while I hope you don’t have to wait that long, sometimes God has other plans. The positivity that she cloaked herself in daily never ceased to amaze me – my sister is truly my hero and my inspiration. YOU are that as well. Keep your chin held high. Cry with your man, then pick each other up and try again. We are all rooting for you guys <3
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    March 20, 2017 at 8:01 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I hope that it doesn’t take us that long, either, but it does remind me that a) it can happen when it happens and b) I can’t put my life on hold. I have to keep living.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:41 pm
  • Reply Rae

    Sending lots of love your way <3
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    March 20, 2017 at 8:09 am
  • Reply Kelli @ Hungry Hobby

    We all love you and appreciate you sharing your extremely personal story with us, sending tons of prayers your way. <3 <3 <3
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    March 20, 2017 at 8:22 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, Kelli. xoxoxo

      March 22, 2017 at 2:40 pm
  • Reply Jennifer @ Fit Nana

    So, here’s another hug <>

    Positives from the weekend? I drank some really good wine, got invited to hang out with some really cool people (what? a social life? who me?) and got to meet my new grand-dog. Yep. grand-dog. Also, I ate copious amounts of chocolate. So, that should indicate that I would definitely pick chocolate chip banana. I’m kinda funny about nuts in muffins and brownies. It’s got to be a specific craving or I’m not going to like it. And definitely balanced. Balance is good.

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    March 20, 2017 at 8:26 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      It really is good, isn’t it? AND SINCE WHEN DO YOU HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE?

      March 22, 2017 at 2:39 pm
  • Reply Lindsey @ livinglovingrunner

    I’m so sorry to hear about your test results. Your positive attitude throughout this process and your life makes me want to keep a smile on in the hard times. There have been many days as of late that life just gets the best of me and I just get the urge to go run… I hope that everything works out for you guys in the long run – this is just a blip on the radar for now (feeling like a HUGE blip), but it will all work out, someday! Keep your chin up and your spirits high πŸ™‚ We are all rooting for you!
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    March 20, 2017 at 8:27 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, Lindsey! I really, really appreciate it. You have no idea how much.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:39 pm
  • Reply Michelle

    My heart hurts for you. Please reach out if you need a shoulder/friend/anything at all.
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    March 20, 2017 at 8:55 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, Michelle. I definitely will.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:38 pm
  • Reply Sarah @ Sweet Miles

    You are so positive, and it is contagious!!! Keep you in my prayers, friend! Proud of you for continuing to stay optimistic!
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    March 20, 2017 at 9:01 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, Sarah. I’m trying. This is helping.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:38 pm
  • Reply Emily

    Dear Susie, I wish I could give you a hug right now, but this will have to suffice. I’m so thankful that God has put many precious ladies in here who have walked a similar road and are encouraging you. I know it’s so hard to see the positives, but I’m praying for you; praying that if God wills, some day, a little one will be part of the Lemmer household. Keep looking at the positives friend. Keep being gentle with your body. And thank you for sharing your heart.
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    March 20, 2017 at 9:09 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you so much for your prayers, Emily. Thank you for your love, thank you for reading.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:38 pm
  • Reply Sarah

    I’m so sorry, sweetie. Sending you lots of love & strength. (And puppy snuggles, obvs.)
    PS- choc chip all the way

    March 20, 2017 at 9:17 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Alex is trying to take all of the chocochip. Luckily, I’m at home more during the day, so THERE

      March 22, 2017 at 2:37 pm
  • Reply Suzlyfe's mommy, Clare

    This just isn’t fair, bug, it just isn’t and I am so sorry.

    But I have to believe that someday, somewhere you and Alex will find your baby. It’s just not that time right now, and that hurts.

    I know that this won’t help, but I have to say this because it’s true. Even though we were heartbroken when I miscarried, if I hadn’t miscarried that baby…… we wouldn’t have had Chris, and that would have been truly tragic.

    I Love you,
    Mommy

    March 20, 2017 at 9:24 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      And then you wouldn’t have had me, and that would have been THE WORST. LOVE YOU

      March 22, 2017 at 2:37 pm
      • Reply Suzlyfe's mommy, Clare

        ……..and I wondered how long it would take you to add that!!!!!

        March 22, 2017 at 4:44 pm
  • Reply Marcia

    Hugs to you. I so wanted a different outcome for you. I know that hurt too well. Here’s to staying the course because you will get there. Until then lean on us…and running. xoxo
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    March 20, 2017 at 9:47 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, lovely. I really appreciate you.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:36 pm
  • Reply Lacey@fairytalesandfitness

    That donut looks delicious. I had to laugh when you said starting your weekend early with 2 breakfasts and a nap. That sounds great! I love taking naps. Sometimes you just need that extra sleep.
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    March 20, 2017 at 9:47 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I really did just need to check out for a bit!

      March 22, 2017 at 2:36 pm
  • Reply Suzy

    I’d like to know what not to say to someone with a BFN. Whenever anyone I love is in pain, I don’t usually think to hard about putting the exact words in the correct order; I just cry with them, or run with them, or just listen. But if there’s anything that I should never say, I want to know what it is!
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    March 20, 2017 at 9:48 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      In short: don’t tell them how they should feel. Just tell them that they are allowed any feelings they are having. Be it mad/sad/glad whatever.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:35 pm
  • Reply Stephanie Suire

    Sending you all the positive and happy thoughts and thanks for your honesty and vulnerability during your journey. Okay, to share my positives, I had a GREAT end to Spring Break. Saw Beauty and the Beast, went to Reggae yoga (outside in Dallas because the weather was PERFECT), watched my husband play two acoustic gigs, then ate dinner and drank beer on the patio.

    March 20, 2017 at 9:48 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      That sounds AWESOME. Can I share a beer? OUTSIDE???

      March 22, 2017 at 2:35 pm
  • Reply Heather@hungryforbalance

    Susie, I am so, so sorry. You are strong, but this still sucks. I’m proud of you focusing on the positives. I don’t think I did a good job with that.
    I’m thinking about you. πŸ’—πŸ’—
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    March 20, 2017 at 11:01 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I’m trying to do so. I’m not sure how good I am doing with it. But I’m trying.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:34 pm
  • Reply Lex

    I am so sorry Suzy, lots of hugs and doggy snuggles.

    March 20, 2017 at 11:15 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, Lex. I really appreciate it.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:34 pm
  • Reply Erin @ Erin's Inside Job

    Sorry Suzy that you have this tough journey. If anyone can get through it, I know it’s you.
    Erin @ Erin’s Inside Job recently posted…Last Teaching WeekendMy Profile

    March 20, 2017 at 11:36 am
  • Reply Tiffany @ The Chi-Athlete

    One foot in front of the other, and onto the next, Boo. <3
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    March 20, 2017 at 11:53 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Just keep swimming!

      March 22, 2017 at 2:33 pm
  • Reply Patrick@looneyforfood.com

    I love how you focus on the positives. My mom went through 5 years of infertility treatments in order to have my sister. I was older so I watched her go through it (apparently I wasn’t enough, she needed a backup kid incase I turn out horrible, haha only kidding) and it was soooo hard on her! An emotional roller coaster at best. She hated being told not to exercise and the shots, and tests……. So I can only imagine what you are going through and am inspired by your strength !!!
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    March 20, 2017 at 12:13 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I hope we aren’t in for a 5 year ride. But then, I guess we will just have to see! Thank you, Patrick.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:31 pm
  • Reply San

    I am so, so sorry about the BFN… πŸ™ but, I am a very optimistic person, so I’ll just be over here being super-optimistic for you.
    Hugs, friend. And at least you could enjoy a run (for now).
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    March 20, 2017 at 12:13 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you for taking over the optimism for me. I appreciate it!

      March 22, 2017 at 2:31 pm
  • Reply Nikki

    Sorry suz πŸ’•πŸ€— time, it’s hard to wait… but your wonderful and in my thoughts

    March 20, 2017 at 12:14 pm
  • Reply Nicole @ Fitful Focus

    I wish there were something I could say or do to make this better for you, but I know there’s not. All I know is that you are strong. You are amazing, and puppy kisses are the best. My love and good vibes to you and Alex (and Ridley!).
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    March 20, 2017 at 2:48 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you lovely. You are fabulous too!

      March 22, 2017 at 2:29 pm
  • Reply Ange // Cowgirl Runs

    Love you so much, friend. You were in my thoughts all weekend.
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    March 20, 2017 at 3:02 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Love and hugs lady

      March 22, 2017 at 2:29 pm
  • Reply Sarah @ BucketListTummy

    My heart dropped when I saw your news – I’m so sorry. You are so strong and so lucky to have such a great support system. And those chocolate chip muffins look stellar.
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    March 20, 2017 at 3:09 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you lovely. Food is so healing.

      March 22, 2017 at 2:27 pm
  • Reply Hannah

    Sorry to hear πŸ™ Don’t you love how dogs think everything can be fixed by licking your face though? If only they were right about that.
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    March 20, 2017 at 6:04 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Maybe not fixed, but definitely helped substantially!

      March 22, 2017 at 2:26 pm
  • Reply Ellen @ My Uncommon Everyday

    I love you . Not a lot, but that’s all I got  ❀️
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    March 20, 2017 at 9:00 pm
  • Reply Alicia @Bridges Through Life

    I dont know what to say except those banana muffins look good and I made chocolate chip banana bread on sunday with my friend. First time baking in over 2 months really. Baking is so theraputic and I miss having an oven during my travels. I am so glad you have support from so many people during this time and wonderful support from your mom.
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    March 21, 2017 at 10:27 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      It was apparently chocolate chip banana bread day! I love it.

      March 22, 2017 at 1:57 pm
  • Reply Kristy from Southern In Law

    You know I feel about being positive in shitty situations after our conversation the other day – but there is always a positive to be found.

    Like banana muffins and cuddly puppies and husbands who still love us even though we could TOTALLY beat Kim K in an ugly cry-off πŸ˜‰β€
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    March 22, 2017 at 3:30 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Giiiiirrrrrl you know it

      March 22, 2017 at 1:55 pm

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