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Good day, my friends.

Perhaps as a culmination of race training, transitions in fitness regiments, the transition point of summer/midyear and the oncoming all, and, you know, just some freaking heavy stuff, it seems to me that recently many of our fellow bloggers have been searching for or reminding themselves of the need for perspective. Well, following the events of this weekend, today just seemed to be the right moment for me to chime in.

world in a grain of sand suzlyfe

If you have read my blog for any amount of time, you know that I have a fairly pragmatic view of the world (See my Tough Talk posts, for more reference). Some of that is the fact that I am, quite honestly, a little too jaded about certain things. Some of that pragmatism stems from the necessity of keeping my head and wits about me in the midst of the “chaos” that is the Suzlyfe. I am a champion of the “it is what it is,” but I also can get really, really bummed about certain things. I used to be very competitive and a perfectionist; I have learned to quell some of that over the years, but it still tends to pop up. My body, the uphills and downhills of my life, and marathon training have taught me the importance of the overall picture while living for the now.

In the effort to keep this short, and as terse as my loquaciousness will allow, I want to address 2 things that brought my world to focus this weekend:

1) My leg. I mentioned this yesterday and last week, but my mentality concerning my body is completely contradictory: I am both paranoid about it and plan out everything carefully, yet I also have a tendency to forget that, guess what, I have a chronic illness. And I (was) due for Remicade, which I am receiving today (Tuesday).

Running my second official half marathon--Women's Running Nashville Women's Half Marathon 2012

Running my second official half marathon–Women’s Running Nashville Women’s Half Marathon 2012

I am so determined to live MY life, not my disease’s life, that I forget, Holy Cow. You have pronated ankles, joints and musculature tending toward inflammation, a chronic disease that affects the way you heal and recover and you joints as well as keeping you from properly absorbing things. It doesn’t matter how “quiet” your disease is. These are still the facts of your life. And you. are. training. for. a. marathon. It doesn’t matter if I run every day or 3x a week as I do; I’m still training for a marathon. Give yourself a break. Zooma was not a goal race–I was more mad than anything that I had a) paid for it and b) was planning on running with friends.

Myself, Mo, and Erica! I deemed it necessary to dress as ridiculously as possible. #SwirlOn + Purple Procompression

Myself, Mo, and Erica! I deemed it necessary to dress as ridiculously as possible. #SwirlOn + Purple Procompression

But I (hope) I will have many more half marathons in my future. I only know of one more plan to do a marathon (regardless of what I might like to do). I planned my training for this reason. So I am giving my body a break. There will be other medals. I am interested in one first weekend of October.


2) I would like to preface this by saying that my husband complied with all HIPAA laws, told me nothing identifying about the patient other than that he was an elderly gentleman of senior citizen age, and the concrete facts. I know nothing more about the patient that this story:

A man came to the hospital this spring with (essentially) terminal leukemia. The chemo had nearly killed him (he was emaciated, ashen, with rashes and horrific blood counts), and after spending a month at the hospital, it was determined that the cancer would finally do the job, and quickly (2-4 weeks life expectancy). He was sent home on palliative care and hospice (meaning, keep him comfortable). My husband never heard any more from him.

Recently, my husband saw the man’s name on an upcoming schedule. He assumed the man had passed, that the family just hadn’t remembered to cancel the follow up (this is common). Lo and behold, my husband goes to work a week later, and sees the man’s chart, and name on the schedule. He double checks with the nurse–yep, it’s him. In fact, she seems surprised when asked if the patient’s color is good and his numbers up. Alex walks into the room, and what he finds is, literally, the equivalent of a medical miracle.

Standing before him is a man of normal weight, looking 20 years younger, good color in his cheeks, no rash, normal blood counts. According to the patient, for 10 days after discharge, he was so sick he has no memory. Then every day, he got a bit better. The consensus is that he experienced spontaneous remission due to some leftover chemotherapy in his system. This happens in maybe 1 in a million cases. As the man told Alex, I am a religious man, but I tell you, there was definitely something that happened scientifically that fixed me (I am paraphrasing of course). But the most important thing he said?

Dr. I was dying. Every day that I wake up, I am just so happy to be here. Every day is a gift.

Here is a man, who has led a great life (which he is nearing the later years of), with a loving family, and who has been given the ultimate gift. Science, God, Luck, Karma, the why he is better doesn’t matter. It is the after that does.

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You know that I don’t ascribe to the your problem is bigger than my problem idea–a problem is a problem. Big or small, it matters to you enough to be a problem.Have a problem? Deal with it. Think about it, pray about it (if you are so inclined), but make a decision and move forward calmly in the knowledge that you are acting as best you can.

In 2 months, I may not be able to run my marathon. Or I might. I hope and work for one, but if the other happens, in the long run, look at everything that I have gained from the attempt. Every day is a gift. Wake up, be happy, take it for what it is.

May you live every day of your life.

No real questions, but tell me–what helps you gain perspective in your life? What/Who brings you back to the real world?

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  • Reply Lacey@fairytalesandfitness

    Hope your leg does get better and you feel great for your next race! Sometimes I can get worked up about small things and I just have to take a step back and realize its not a bid deal.
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    August 5, 2014 at 6:03 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I’m sure that the leg will sort itself out, and if it doesn’t? Well then I have to respect that. Because, honestly, my body won’t be giving me much of a choice!

      August 6, 2014 at 3:28 pm
  • Reply Rachel

    That is an incredible story that literally gave me chills to read. Thank you for sharing because it really does help to put things in perspective.

    August 5, 2014 at 6:43 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You are so welcome. It was too incredible of a story not to share.

      August 6, 2014 at 3:29 pm
  • Reply Courtney @RunningforCupcakes

    Wow that story is amazing and so eye opening. The I Run 4 group that I am a part of is always an eye opener for me. It has really brought my running and the fact that I am able to into perspective for me, and I am so grateful for that. I hope your leg feels better soon and you can get back to marathon training!
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    August 5, 2014 at 7:17 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Well, I do, too, but you know what? I can respect it if it doesn’t. The I Run 4 group seems like such an amazing opportunity and experience, and I can’t wait for you to talk about it more!

      August 6, 2014 at 3:30 pm
  • Reply Judith

    I love the story about the cancer patient :).
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    August 5, 2014 at 7:22 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I mean, how can it not just make you feel a little lighter inside?

      August 6, 2014 at 3:31 pm
  • Reply Suslyfe's mommy, Clare

    …and those are the things that give me hope……..some “things” are just out of our reach, our knowledge, our science and our human beliefs………but they happen…….and they give me hope.
    When I came off of our horse in 2008, I KNEW when I came to, and could move, that I was still here for a reason…….I didn’t know what that reason would be, but I knew without a doubt that I had “something” out there to do and I’d know IT when I saw IT.
    TeamChallenge was that (first) “IT,” but it turns out that there have a been more “ITS” and I just let “them” come in as they will. I know my “ITS” when I see ’em.
    I had one this past weekend, and it was a reminder that I need to live everyday of my life–while I’m fortunate enough to have them.
    Every day is a gift, not a given.

    August 5, 2014 at 7:27 am
    • Reply Michael Anderson

      “Everyday is a gift not a given”

      That is SO true, and is really how I get my perspective. I have had too many friends and family members die young, get sick, or otherwise have their life altered forever to see things otherwise.

      One of my best friends and his wife were runners, she was a medical researcher, he was a chem professor … and she was feeling achy, figured it was running and took a few days off, but when it didn’t get better she went to her doctor. And within 6 months she was dead, after a harrowing struggle, leaving behind a husband and two young kids. It still impacts me emotionally more than a decade later.

      But today those kids are in their teen years, the husband has remarried, gotten his MD and dedicated his life to cancer research. Life is for the living.

      I also very much agree with the ‘we all have problems’ idea – because the other path is the one traveled by emotional manipulators. Those are the people who when you have a headache, they have a brain tumor … they have ‘been there, done that, lived your life’ … and as a result you can never measure up. It was something that plagued Lisa and I for a while with certain relationships, until we exercised power of choice.

      Great post Suz!
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      August 5, 2014 at 8:03 am
      • Reply Suslyfe's mommy, Clare

        your phrase……….when you have a headache, they have a brain tumor……….how perfectly priceless!
        I will remember that line and I’ll use it. The “one-ups-manships” that some people will pull out to “best” you are amazing and just flat dumb.
        I just love that phrase–thanks for making me smile!

        August 5, 2014 at 9:50 pm
      • Reply suzlyfe

        I can’t remember if I have discussed this in great detail, but when i was first diagnosed I took a really hard line with myself, and I never, ever cried about what I was going through, except for in pain. I kept telling myself, “It could be worse.” And you know what? Sure, it could have been. But I have seen how problems, big or small, can change people, can make them different from who they really are. If you spend the whole of your life trying to measure yourself, you’ll never see how tall you really are.

        August 6, 2014 at 3:44 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You and I have learned that everything you thought you knew to be a given can be gone in an instant. All the certains–I also think of Clancy–we are so lucky to have it in us to fight the battles that we fight, and I hope that you always remember that.

      August 6, 2014 at 3:32 pm
  • Reply Carson

    I love seeing/hearing/reading about stories like this. I often say that this is why we call it medical “practice,” because no matter how experienced we are, crazy things like this will happen just to prove that medical professionals don’t know it all.

    With A’s recent diagnosis, our lives have really been put into perspective and we have been forced to re-evaluate some life goals that we thought were set in stone. This was not the reality check we wanted, but we decided we would play with the cards we were dealt and not dwell on the negative.
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    August 5, 2014 at 7:49 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I love your point about medicine being a “practice.” Such a fantastic point. I think that faith goes beyond religion, into medicine, into our selves, and back out again–there are these moments of connection when they all come together. And I know what you mean–in no way would anyone–me or a stranger on the street–ever wish what you are going through upon you, but one of the thoughts that always gives me strength, when I am having a down moment, is to look around and look within, and to be thankful that it is I, and not someone with less internal strength and determination, or with less external support, that is dealing with this in this particular moment. When I run with Team Challenge, I remember the first race being one for me-with-crohns; the second I ran for those-with-crohns, and the third I ran for all of us that ever exceeded their own expectations. That is why I am so adamant about allowing yourself to be and become who you need to be. Because you never know when that can change.

      August 6, 2014 at 3:37 pm
  • Reply Erica { }

    I love that patient story! Thank you for the reminder. I needed it.
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    August 5, 2014 at 7:51 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You are welcome, though I know for a fact that you are far more humble than the average person. Sometimes, we just need a reason to smile.

      August 6, 2014 at 3:37 pm
  • Reply Stacie @ SimplySouthernStacie

    Are you trying to make a girl cry over here? That story about the elderly man is just so truly inspiring. Life is such a gift! Speaking of inspiring, I’ve just got to say that you are so inspiring yourself lady! I’m in awe of your dedication and strenghth to push beyond the boundaries that others may view as excuses or limitations. You rock!
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    August 5, 2014 at 7:52 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Oh, Stacie, that just is the biggest compliment ever. I am who I am, and I have a great many people to thank for the good and the strength in me.

      August 6, 2014 at 3:38 pm
  • Reply Lisa @ Running Out Of Wine

    That’s an amazing story. I am actually reading a book right now called “Lone Wolf’ by Jodi Picoult and I haven’t finished it yet but its about a father who was in a really bad car accident and on life support, and whether or not the family should pull the plug/hope for a miracle.
    I always tend to make my problems way bigger than they actually are. I always know they are not so bad but it doesn’t stop me from getting all worked up about them. It helps me to focus on the positive.
    I have been reading “Ali on the Run” blog for years and so I’m familiar with her story of Crohns and her ups and downs. I hope that your treatment today goes well. Enjoy the process of training for your marathon on the days that you can. I know that you will make it to more marathons, whether or not it is this fall.
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    August 5, 2014 at 7:56 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I followed Ali for a long time, and I actually have one of her I heart sweat shirts (I used to tweet pictures of me wearing it). I think that her story goes to show how quickly our health can be snatched away from us. I am so, so lucky for my current good health, small problems aside. I will have to look into Lone Wolf, what a great recommendation. I will likely recommend it to Alex, he often has to have those conversations with patient’s families, which I absolutely cannot imagine.
      And I hope that there are more marathons. I don’t think there will be one for a while after (good ole prepping of the body for another marathon, if you know what I mean), but I hope to always believe that it is in me!

      August 6, 2014 at 3:41 pm
  • Reply Deborah @ Confessions of a Mother Runner

    What a great story-thanks for sharing. I love to hear happy endings like that and not all of the sad scary stuff on the news everyday.
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    August 5, 2014 at 8:25 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I can barely even watch the news. We need the truth, and not false hope, but a little inspiration never hurts either.

      August 6, 2014 at 3:44 pm
  • Reply Brianna @ I run He tris

    I think it’s human nature to blow things out of proportion, unless you’ve actually experienced something that puts things into perspective. I read a story yesterday of this lady in her 40s who had a stroke and, fortunately, fully recovered. That changed her perspective and she started to realize what is really important; such as spending time with her family instead of cleaning windows until they sparkle. A good friend of ours, uncle once told us his view on life and I loved it. He said “If you have a problem ask yourself one question: Can you do something about it? If yes, then do it. If no, move on.” I try to remind myself of that almost daily instead of freaking out over small things.
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    August 5, 2014 at 8:39 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I totally agree with you Brianna. It’s kind of like how, when you are a kid, every single thing seems HUGE and insurmountable, until you gain the context later. And your uncle has a great outlook–fix what you can, do what you can. You can’t worry about something that you can’t do anything about.

      August 6, 2014 at 3:46 pm
  • Reply Ursula

    Stories like that definitely help me gain perspective. I love reading about people who overcome amazing obstacles because it reminds me that more often than not I make mountains out of molehills. I love the way you look at your illness. It’s true that you need to cut yourself a break and remember that you’re human and your body might need some time, but I appreciate that you also don’t let it stop you. It doesn’t seem like you ever think, oh I can’t do that because I have a disease. Instead, you seem to figure out a way which is so darn inspiring:)
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    August 5, 2014 at 8:59 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you so much, I have chills. As I told Stacie, compliments like this, that I am realistic but also hopeful and pushing myself (within reason)…hearing things like that make me smile from the inside out. I have been blessed to be surrounded by amazing people, who I can only hope to show how much I love them by putting into practice what they show me. For example–I will never forget that simple, simple comment you made as to why you started your blog: to surround yourself with inspiration. How can you go wrong?

      August 6, 2014 at 3:49 pm
  • Reply Caitlin

    Timely haha. That’s absolutely wonderful for that man, and I hope he continues to be well. What do I do when I need a dash of perspective? I run. And I watch comforting shows about fairy tales way past my bed time, but that’s another issue. I ran my heart out this morning, crying for a nice portion of it. And then my mum called at the halfway point knowing I would be up and probably running and I cried some more. And then I felt better. I spent the second half of the run accepting what is now, formulating a plan, and determining that I will use the free time that’s coming to knock my marathon out of the effing water in November. I run. I cry. I scream. I let it out. I talk to my loved ones and cry with them. And then I move forward one step at a time.
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    August 5, 2014 at 9:00 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You will never believe me when I say this, but you have to because you know that I would NEVER lie to you: I had this post completely written and in the queue before we spoke, before I even left work. It really is downright scary how in tune we are, without even knowing. When you sent me that text, the only thing I could think of was “I need to call her right now, but if I do and a stupid car goes by and I can’t hear her or if I get on the elevator and…”
      I think that this time, you are handling this differently than before. I think before we would have said “we’ll get you through this,” and I know that I said so, and that we were all thinking that. But the difference is that now, you know that YOU can get through it. Whatever it is. We will all be there, but you will get through it on your own 2 feet.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:08 pm
  • Reply Sara @ lifebetweenthemiles

    That story brought me to tears (I’m a little overly emotional today) but it was really amazing and I love that he said everyday is a gift. It’s true. It is so easy to get wrapped up in our day to day activities and forget that we need to be thankful we are here to get frustrated, happy, etc.

    When I am having a hard time with perspective, Ashton and Robyn usually can bring me back to what is important.
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    August 5, 2014 at 9:18 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You’ve got 2 excellent men in your life, and you are an excellent lady yourself. And sometimes, we all need a good cry.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:08 pm
  • Reply Rae

    Great post. Thank you so much for sharing such an inspiring story!
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    August 5, 2014 at 9:44 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      So welcome. I think we all needed it.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:09 pm
  • Reply Sarah

    Oh I loved this. Hooray for positive energy. I am certain you will get that leg back and healed. Thanks for the great start to a Tuesday!

    August 5, 2014 at 9:46 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You are so welcome, and thanks for the advice! WE shall see what happens!

      August 6, 2014 at 4:09 pm
  • Reply Ange @ Cowgirl Runs

    I’ve definitely been slightly bummed this past month. It’s been busy and overwhelming and where I am (living) isn’t quite what I wanted/expected. But you know what? I have a roof over my head. I have an able body (at least I think I still do. It’s been a damn long time since I ran) and I have great friends and family and the best cat in the world.
    The little things that tend to get me down are the things that don’t always matter in the grand scheme of things.

    I’m sending happy healing thoughts to you and your leg, my dear!

    PS –
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    August 5, 2014 at 10:04 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You and I both have it in us to get down (like, actually down). And then it is easy for it all to fester and pile up and culminate in a period of real bummage. But there is always that moment, that ray of light, that pierces through, and that makes you start to believe again.
      And you know I am working on it. Gotta find some funds, but I’m working on it.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:11 pm
      • Reply Ange @ Cowgirl Runs

        I really appreciate that you really do “get” how easy it is to get bummed and down, even if it is seemingly for ‘no” reason.

        Also, you know the awesome thing about Spruce Meadows? It happens every year! So if this year doesn’t work out, there’s always the National next June or Masters’ next fall 🙂 You know I’ll still be here!
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        August 6, 2014 at 4:20 pm
        • Reply suzlyfe

          I’m holding you to it. Thank you for understanding. It will happen. Just not sure when.

          August 6, 2014 at 4:35 pm
  • Reply Michele @ paleorunningmomma

    I can relate! I tend to be hard on myself and get caught up in details, but get a nagging feeling that I need to step back and get some perspective. Actually, I can be kind of hard on myself about NOT having perspective so I try to cut myself a break with that too. Truthfully, just going for a run for the enjoyment of it helps me gain perspective. Physcial distance away from people and things, plus being in nature, helps with this. Most of my realizations and perspective come from being in that state of flow.

    Whether or not you wind up running the marathon, there is so much knowledge about yourself and growth that happens when going for a goal. I would not be blogging right now if I had not had the crappiest marathon experience last october.

    August 5, 2014 at 10:31 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Oh, I know that vicious cycle! You are guilt-tripping your guilt-trip. Ugh so frustrating. And so right as well–sometimes, you just need to cut away from everything and re-establish your center. Good things come from the bad, ultimately. You just have to give them time.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:12 pm
  • Reply Cassie

    One of my best friends always puts things in perspective for me… she brings me down to earth and reminds me that they aren’t as bad as they seem and I’m probably making a big deal out of nothing. For big life things – my dad is my go-to. J also does a pretty good job keeping me calm about work things.
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    August 5, 2014 at 12:05 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I am so glad that you have such a fantastic support system–you have the whole gradient covered and I think that it shows in your approach to life and your strength!

      August 6, 2014 at 4:13 pm
  • Reply Kate @ Baking in Yoga Pants

    We are so on the same wave length today. Dan was in a car accident that totaled his car this weekend. Getting that call, talk about perspective. For me, perspective comes in taking a step back and considering what is REALLY, truly important. The rest is just stuff.
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    August 5, 2014 at 12:18 pm
    • Reply Kate @ Baking in Yoga Pants

      And, I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers hoping that healthy running makes it’s way back on your radar. You are an inspiration <3
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      August 5, 2014 at 12:20 pm
      • Reply suzlyfe

        Well thank you, both for the well-wishes and the compliment. What happens will happen–I can only deal with what I am given, and sure, perspective sheds a lot of light, but if the leg don’t wanna cooperate, it ain’t gonna!

        August 6, 2014 at 4:19 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Oh my goodness! Please tell me that he and all others involved are alright? There really are few things that slam you back to reality like something like that. I remember when I was a teenager, and some of my classmates would get these fancy cars. I remember having a conversation with my parents as to why my brother and I were driving family cars (which I was fine with), and the consensus was that you never wanted the first question to be “how is the car?”
      As you so aptly put it. Keep the main thing the main thing. You all are in my thoughts for a speedy recovery.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:18 pm
  • Reply Heather @fitncookies

    First off, I really hope this medicine helps you, and that your body reminds you before it all attacks again. I know what it’s like to just forget and then symptoms appear. It’s beyond frustrating! Second, how amazing of this guy!! Wow, what a huge miracle, and that he acknowledged it as that and owed it all to God. Living our lives everyday to the fullest is what we are made to do!
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    August 5, 2014 at 1:05 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      So true–and I think that you do a really great job of making your family first. It is so obvious in the love that you all have, and the amount of time that you spend with your friends and family. And thank you, I am thankful and lucky to be able to have access to something that has proven to be so good for me, my “liquid gold.” I only wish that others could be so lucky. You and I both know what it is like to be doing “everything right” only to have our bodies remind us who is really in charge…NOT US!

      August 6, 2014 at 4:22 pm
  • Reply Dannii @ Hungry Healthy Happy

    What an incredible story about that man. Unfortunately many people don’t really start living until they are told they don’t have much longer, or if they recover from something. We should all live each day as best we can and enjoy live to the fullest!
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    August 5, 2014 at 1:08 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      This is so true. You don’t have to be reckless with you life, but you shouldn’t hide from it either.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:22 pm
  • Reply Sara @ Lake Shore Runner

    Wow what a great post and that story gave me goose bumps. It is always important to put your life matters into perspective. Some bigger than others but they are still problems. It is important to not let these problems consume your life and stop you from living your life. Right now mine is my injury. It has been a tough road but I have come to the realization that I wasn’t meant to run this race this year, but there will be many more times. And when I am able to run it I will be 110% and hopefully exceed expectations. My life motto has always been- “Everything Happens for a Reason!” And this example does not fall short of it.

    I am sorry you are not feeling 100%. As you always do listen to your body and do what is best for your body, not always your mind. Because we know our runner minds always want/need to run. I have learned to shut that voice down recently ha.
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    August 5, 2014 at 1:34 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Bang on, my friend. You will run again, and without pain. It will happen. It may not happen like you planned it to, but that doesn’t mean that it won’t. Sometimes, you just have to know that something will happen, and keep on moving forward rather than sitting and waiting for it.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:25 pm
  • Reply Katie @glutes and ladders

    That story is incredible. There were three different times in about 4-5 years that the doctors told us there is no way my grandma would make it and she pulled through all 3 times. God works in crazy ways sometimes.

    August 5, 2014 at 4:40 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Isn’t it amazing? And the will of humans, the mind over matter, it is so incredible too. People will give up when they are good and ready.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:25 pm
  • Reply AMBER

    Another suz lyfe post I fall in love with, because of your words, not only what they mean and how they apply to me (ironically as well) but your word choice (uhm, i LOVE THE WORD LOQUACIOUS, I may or may not have had an obsession with it in middle school and somehow finagled a way to use it in every single class period…for a few weeks..)

    anyway, I couldn’t relate more to this part:
    You have pronated ankles, joints and musculature tending toward inflammation, a chronic disease that affects the way you heal and recover and you joints as well as keeping you from properly absorbing things. It doesn’t matter how “quiet” your disease is. These are still the facts of your life.

    I too have pronated ankles, hyper extended ligaments and joints (hello multiple breaks/sprains/strains/injuries) as well as a chronic disease, and two autoimmune conditions that DO effect how I heal/recover/function on a daily basis, I sometimes “forget” that these conditions and disorders, even if they “are quiet” still effect me in some way/shape/form EVERY single day. That afternoon slump, where I feel as if I’ve been hit by a bus some days is a friendly reminder…BUT as you said, we need to remember these things and work WITH them, not against them! My problems may be “small” in comparison to some, but they are still problems, and I love how you phrase that, because it’s true, but I don’t throw pity parties anymore, I WOMAN up and move on, and show my body the love, respect, and rest it needs, even if my brain disagrees at times!
    <3 xoxo
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    August 5, 2014 at 6:05 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      HELL YEAH YOU WOMAN UP. And that is why you are amazing, and that I love you. We have challenges, we have imperfections, but those are the facts of life. All the greater the glory when we do what we want to do anyway 😀

      August 6, 2014 at 4:27 pm
  • Reply Sue @ This Mama Runs for Cupcakes

    I totally get this. I’m a Pediatric Intensive care nurse and I see children die all of the time. I used to come home from work and my husband would be bitching about his desk job and how much it sucked and then would promptly ask me to tell him about my day and the sick kids that I took care of. It truly is a matter of perspective. We get caught up in the little every day things, kids tantrums, bad days at work etc, but forget that we are SO lucky to be leading the lives that we do. We don’t have to be fearful walking down the street like the women and children and families in the Middle East. Despite having a chronic illness, you are living life to it’s fullest, and sometimes we forget that and take it for granted. We all need to take a step back every once in a while and reflect on the GOOD things! Great post Suz!
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    August 5, 2014 at 7:47 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you. I am sure that you know all too well what it is like to have to keep yourself in perspective both ways–neither to belittle nor magnetize what you dealing with. The same goes for Alex as well–he fights this similar mental struggle, and it is so prevalent for him with me as his wife and doing what he does for his job–it is all ends. Sometimes, we all need to know that we matter, but that we don’t matter more or less than anyone else. And that, in and of itself, is something to be incredibly thankful for.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:30 pm
  • Reply Sarah

    What an inspiring story! I think sometimes we see our own problems as bigger than they are because they are so close to us – and other people’s problems, though they might be bigger, are just further away. And you’re right – we take simple things for granted all the time – like how lucky we are to be alive and healthy and living in a free and safe place. Thanks for the reminder!
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    August 5, 2014 at 9:56 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      We all need reminders sometimes that problems aren’t problems–they are just little tests. Then we can face them head on and give them hell 😀

      August 6, 2014 at 4:31 pm
  • Reply Wendy@Taking the Long Way Home

    What a great post! I am a nurse practitioner and see reasons every day to be grateful for health and to be able to run. I also see a lot of people who take their health and the health of their children for granted, and that frustrates me…. Hang in there–I love your positive attitude and how you keep pushing forward even with a chronic illness!
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    August 6, 2014 at 5:38 am
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  • Reply Lauren @ ihadabiglunch

    I’m stunned by that story. There are no words – I love hearing about miracles like that. What an incredible gift for that man but also for your husband (and you) to experience. It’s stories like that that make me feel like my petty worries about the future (aka vague problems that aren’t even real) are pointless. It motivates me to stop worrying about five years from now and instead start grabbing hold of the next 12 hours before I go to sleep. I really hope I don’t have to go through a personal tragedy in order to fully get a grip on that idea, because the “carpe diem” philosophy is so cliche but, at the same time, so hard to actually live.
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    August 6, 2014 at 9:31 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I actually always planned on naming my big show horse “Carpe Diem.” It isn’t cliche at all 😀
      And you are already way ahead of the curve on gaining perspective–just look at the past several months.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:32 pm
  • Reply Jenni @ Fitzala

    I’m sorry, that sucks you are taking a break from something you love. Buuut, think about all the new found time that you’ll have! You could learn something new, spend time with friends, or take up a sport (that isn’t hard on your body. like kickball).

    I agree with your view about problems. We all have them, but people are different in how they deal with them and let (or not let) the problem run their life. You’re obviously a rockstar when against all the odds you’re a marathoner. So props to you for that and being intelligent enough to take a break when you need it instead of pushing yourself to further injury like it’s so easy for competitive and driven people to do.

    Excited to hear how your rest goes!
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    August 6, 2014 at 12:50 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      What happens, will happen. If my leg doesn’t hold, it is my body trying to tell me something, and I can respect that. I have far greater plans for it, in the long run, so I just need to take care of it. And if rest is what it needs–rest is what it gets. And it has taken me a long time to permit that.

      August 6, 2014 at 4:34 pm
  • Reply Suslyfe's mommy, Clare

    OK, Suz,–YOU have started me thinking that I need to put my back-health-issues a new perspective.

    The is going to be a different kind of journey, where the end result is important, but it is the journey that I’ll live every day. I think that this may be my marathon, my big race, and I need to properly train for it, nourish my body for the work it will have to do, sleep because I need the recharge. I also need to take it in small pieces, little steps, but if I keep walking, I’ll get there eventually!
    Patience is a virtue….not that I have much– but I need to find some. Maybe its in that place where all the odd socks go.

    I AM going back to teaching this fall. I’ve missed being in the classroom, I’ve missed making a difference, and I’ve really missed the laughs and giggles that only little girls can do…..and my pink shoes…….but what I’ve missed the most is being part of something that is SO much larger than the sum of the individuals.

    So I’m off to start my marathon training, not for 26.2 miles (I wish) but for my journey, in little bitty steps that will build up on their own.

    August 6, 2014 at 5:06 pm
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