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Permission, Purchases, Presents (Labor Day Weekend Recap)

Looking back over my weekend alone and your response to my post on feeling like I’ve been overindulgent. Spoil alert… I did some things for me this weekend! When Alex is away…!

Happy Labor Day to all Americans! As a Chicagoan, you are welcome. Did you know that Labor Day is the result of a Chicago labor strike?

Ironically, I will be working, lol. Fortunately, I was able to get a friend to switch types of shifts with me, so I will get off earlier than usual, right around the time that Alex gets home from his NYC trip! I’m so excited to hear all about his trip–both about our friends but also his adventures: they got to spend the day at the US Open and got to see Venus play! Also, you know how much I love NYC!

Friday and Saturday

Basically, Friday and Saturday were a bit weird… Both involved a lot of work, a lot of time on my feet, and very little good sleep. I slept pretty well up until Thursday night… and then quality sleep was AWOL until Saturday night. Basically, I lived in a world of anxiety dreams. Repeatedly. On a 90 min REM loop. Wake up soaked in sweat. Repeat. 

Self-Care Sunday

Finally, Saturday night (well, Sunday morning because of work), I finally slept well and peacefully and soundly (for 5 hours). Then I woke up, ate breakfast and had my (decaf) coffee, then took nap #1. Then I got up, took Ridley for a walk and play time, then came home for tea and nap #2. Then it was time to CLEAN!!!!!

I vacuumed and swiffered and pick things up and opened packages (I will get back to that) and put our balcony back together. I still have things to do (things to rehome and throw out).. also I didn’t end up cleaning the comforter that the cat threw up on… but we are doing laundry tomorrow. 

Pizza for lunch. I didn’t know what to have + we didn’t have much in the fridge so frozen pizza it was! And it was delicious and enjoyed on the newly put-back-together balcony. Happiness. 

Then I may or may not (I did) take nap #3. With Ridley all curled up with me. 

When I woke up, Ridley made it known that she wanted to go and do things, so we went for a lovely long walk down some new streets. I just wanted as much sunshine and chill time as possible. And this fit the bill. 

Upon getting home, I decided that I should probably do at least part of what I had originally planned on doing (groceries and laundry). But that didn’t mean that I couldn’t made a pit stop at Sbux on the way for a (free) frappuccino!!! Yum yum yum. I got some basics at TJ’s (peaches, tomato, chicken, tortillas, cucumber, carrots, and chocolate) and then came home to chill and put my feet up.

I have made an interesting connection with regards to my swollen feet, but I want to test my theory first. I will get back to you!

Dinner was zoodles with a super fun mish mash sauce and cereal before I turned on the TV for the first time since Alex left (!!) to check up on Venus (and see if I could see Alex, lol).

Today (Labor Day) I actually have a pre-work meeting at work, then work, then Alex comes home, and you better believe we are going to have dinner al fresco. Because I am going to soak this up while I still can! 

Permission, Purchases, Presents

Thank you all so much for your various responses to my post on Friday. As always, read my mom’s comment, because she knows things. I realized not just from reading those but also from talking to Alex and just some inner reflection that I needed to get over myself and buy some clothes. 

I had a realization (that I’ve had before, but apparently forgot) that another reason for waiting to buy maternity clothes is that I might jinx everything, clothes were poking the anxiety bear, I think. Also, I have no clue what size I am now. I don’t know how fast I will grow (ass, bump, or boobs), so I don’t know what season to buy. But Julie’s post reminded me that this weekend would be Labor Day aka sales, so I decided why not? If things come, I can send or take them back. I ended up with a bunch of things from Old Navy, Victoria’s Secret, and H & M (a tip off from IG). 

So working that Saturday was an exercise in frustration (it was a weird night), but it paid for my clothes (well, that and a bit of Friday’s earnings). 

I also had a GREAT mail day. I received some great items from some cool companies (ps two HUGE giveaways this week!) that I am PUMPED about, plus a present from Amanda at Run Intended (we met when we were getting our RRCA certifications!) that is just so freaking perfect (and something that I already wanted).


And this Suzicorn pillow from my mommy. (No lie, I saw one when we were in Aspen and told Alex that I wanted it!) #ESP

The weekend was another weekend of working hard (and yes, dealing with hormones and maybe even some tears). I missed Alex, I didn’t always feel my best, but Sunday was the day that I needed to feel back on my (slightly puffy) feet.

  • My purchases Friday and Saturday forced me to move past my anxiety, my insecurities, and to reaffirm my faith in this pregnancy. That freed me to just enjoy Sunday.
  • I got real sleep (multiple times).
  • I ate a balanced diet of fresh veggies and yes, some convenience foods, but here was no ridiculous bingeing on fries and cornbread and chips like I do when I work late at work. My body was so much happier for it!
  • I got to spend time with Ridley that was just so pleasant (read, she wasn’t being INSANE from lack of off leash time).
  • Presents from friends reminded me that sure, I am loved, but most importantly, to stay excited of things to come, proud of who I am now, and proud of my past. 

This is a big week for Alex and I. I have a psych appointment Tuesday (I had to postpone them when we switched insurance until we got approval), and I want to discuss these sleep issues as well as how to better manage my moods and hormones at work during pregnancy. Thursday is a BIG day for us–we have our full anatomy scans and will discover if Yoshi is a Yo-she or a Yos-he. We will be happy with whatever the little one is–truly! And no, there will be no pomp and circumstance gender reveal. To each their own, but we want to know and share that with our families in a low key way.

I hope you all have a lovely day and a lovely week!

Plans for today? How are you bringing summer to a close?

Do you deal with anxiety dreams? HOW?

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  • Reply jen

    I’m glad you let go of your anxiety and treated yourself! Enjoy. And, what — no pink or blue confetti drop over Chicago?!!! haha

    September 4, 2017 at 7:22 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Ummmmm no. That would be a no.

      September 6, 2017 at 6:14 pm
  • Reply Wendy@Taking the Long Way Home

    I think anyone who’s worked hard to get pregnant has those pregnancy anxieties until the baby is actually in their arms. I know I did. I worried about everything! Infertility takes that ability to just enjoy the pregnancy away from us. Sigh.

    VS has maternity clothes? Who knew?

    September 4, 2017 at 7:31 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      VS doesn’t but they have bras and I need things in bigger sizes.
      But I hear you. Infertility is a joy monster.

      September 6, 2017 at 6:13 pm
  • Reply Deborah @ Confessions of a mother runner

    That mommy anxiety never goes away. I had the whole time I was pregnant and I still worry about my babies everyday! Glad you are feeling better though. Super cute onesie

    September 4, 2017 at 7:42 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I’m hoping I just learn how to handle it better…

      September 6, 2017 at 6:12 pm
  • Reply Erica @ Erica Finds

    I’m glad you’re feeling better! Come clothes shopping over here! My stuff will still swim on you and Yoshi but you can be comfy!

    September 4, 2017 at 8:09 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I will definitely take you up on that.

      September 6, 2017 at 6:12 pm
  • Reply Emily Swanson

    I LOVE seeing my blogger friends who are expecting babies partner with companies for giveaways and such; it’s so fun to see all those clothes and things for little people come into your house. 🙂

    Your leggings at the top are so pretty too!

    September 4, 2017 at 8:15 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Luckily, these are products that are for everyone!

      September 6, 2017 at 6:12 pm
  • Reply Julie @ Running in a Skirt

    Thanks for the shout out! Leave it to me to get someone to shop. lol!
    I’m glad you finally got some stuff. I totally get how you’d be panicky about it though.
    Hope your Monday goes well and your appts this week go well.

    September 4, 2017 at 8:29 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you Julie, and thanks for the encouragement!

      September 6, 2017 at 6:11 pm
  • Reply Rachel Frutkin

    I had swollen ankles with my first. It sucked. I had to stay away from sodium and drink lots of water. And I had to put my feet up at work (I was a graphic designer and sat at my desk for hours).

    Get some maternity clothes. They grow with you. For Two Fitness makes the BEST maternity workout wear. GAP maternity makes super stylish and comfy clothes, too.

    September 4, 2017 at 9:37 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I will definitely look at For Two Fitness!

      September 6, 2017 at 6:10 pm
  • Reply Jamie

    I want you to know Cora was sitting with me while I read this and she saw that unicorn pillow and made me zoom in and she said, “can I have that? Mommy will you buy me that?”

    September 4, 2017 at 9:37 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      GET HER ONE! It is from iscream pillows

      September 6, 2017 at 6:10 pm
  • Reply Anna @ Piper's Run

    That onesie is the cutest ever! I loved taking naps when I was pregnant – you need them and deserve them!

    September 4, 2017 at 9:40 am
  • Reply Megan @ Skinny Fitalicious

    You’ve worked so hard to get here. Don’t let fear take that joy away from you!

    September 4, 2017 at 10:39 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Joy stealer of a brain

      September 6, 2017 at 6:09 pm
  • Reply Suzlyfe's mommy, Clare

    Your dad and I went to an annual Labor Day Cookout that one of our lake buddies (Dennis) always throws. He supplies the freshly roasted pork and everyone else brings a side–I always take those “2-bite brownies.”
    Its lots of fun to see the same people for the 3rd holiday cookout this summer. It is also very amusing that many of US have on the exact same outfits in each photo from this summer’s neighborhood outings!!

    I was truly in awe by how many of our neighbors had tears in their eyes when they heard about “our” future Yo-she or Yos-he (great names!) Yes, most of our friends have known that you and Alex have been on this Baby Journey for quite awhile.
    It was amazing how many of these friends have children of their own who have been or are going through the IVF journey. One friend came up, hugged me and told me that I had just given her hope that maybe her daughter will have a positive test after so many BFNs. I also found out that a number of the kids running around at the BBQ were IVF babies.
    Once people know that you will understand the massive effort (and fears) of this journey, they open up and share their family’s stories.
    So, from a number of our lake friends-congratulations on having a positive test! That is a very big deal and they understand that completely1

    September 4, 2017 at 12:34 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      And now we are half way!

      September 6, 2017 at 6:09 pm
      • Reply Suzlyfe's mommy, Clare

        And this half may go a lot faster than the first half!
        Your body will go through all sorts of weird and wonderful changes. Some are not terribly comfortable but then giving birth to an 8 !/2 pound bowling ball is not an easy process.
        When my pelvic ligaments started to stretch, I knew immediately what it was. When people say “its like the day after you go on a long horseback ride”–they were correct! I knew exactly what that felt like from years of riding!

        September 6, 2017 at 6:27 pm
  • Reply Cora

    Holy smokes what a strengthening and empowering week you had suz. And really because you found it all within yourself, by yourself. My favorite words here though were “reaffirm my faith in this pregnancy.” Gah. This really made me happy. You deserve this feeling and not all the anxiety that I know will inevitably be there. Keep pushing yourself to feel the good feels. And have a wonderful week!! What an exciting one including the return of doctor hubs!

    September 4, 2017 at 12:53 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      That’s the thing about anxiety–it tries to make your brain and life a liar. And sometimes, you have to tell yourself otherwise.

      September 6, 2017 at 6:08 pm
  • Reply Alicia @Bridges Through Life

    I love that onesie and am so glad you treated yourself a bit this weekend after a busy Friday and Saturday. It rained here most of the day Sunday, but today is beautiful and nearly 80 degrees again YAY!! I went for a walk after the gym and it was perfect. I also had the weekend to myself which meant I took over the kitchen and did some much needed meal prep so now I won’t need to cook until like Saturday.

    September 4, 2017 at 2:18 pm
  • Reply Kat

    “My purchases Friday and Saturday forced me to move past my anxiety, my insecurities, and to reaffirm my faith in this pregnancy.”
    So glad you were able to practice some self care this weekend. And 3 naps in one day?! You are my hero.

    September 4, 2017 at 6:13 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I do what I can 😀

      September 6, 2017 at 6:06 pm
  • Reply Sarah Rosenblatt

    Yo-she or Yos-he… ha! you kill me.
    Oh sweetie it hadn’t even occurred to me that the clothing anxiety could have been related to jinxing anxiety, I’m so sorry. But I’m glad you ended up having a good weekend with Riddles <3

    September 4, 2017 at 9:07 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I’m glad that I figured it out. Once I did, I was able to relax a bit (and cuddle with daRiddles

      September 6, 2017 at 6:05 pm
  • Reply Emily @ Pizza & Pull-Ups

    Glad you got some rest over the weekend! Sounds like there is lots of fun stuff to look forward to this week.

    September 5, 2017 at 6:20 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      It is another jam packed week for us!

      September 6, 2017 at 6:05 pm
  • Reply Laura @ This Runner's Recipes

    That onesie is adorable! I am glad you got some clothes and good naps in with Ridley!

    September 5, 2017 at 7:10 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I needed a chill day. I’m really glad that I got one!

      September 6, 2017 at 6:04 pm
  • Reply Kelli @ Hungry Hobby

    I totally get that about being worried! That part seems SO HARD. I’m so glad you got some cute stuff though and if nothing else remember positivity energy attracts positivity. Or as my favorite self help guru Jack Canfield says – the law of attraction – so the more baby stuff you do the more likely you are to attract the outcome you want. ha ha no idea if that applies but its worth a shot!

    September 5, 2017 at 9:54 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      hahahaha. Does that also work that the more I spend, the more money we will have??

      September 6, 2017 at 6:03 pm
  • Reply Laura

    I’m jealous of your multiple naps! I could’ve used one this weekend- but we had a really fun time hosting cousins for the weekend, and I was also in NYC Sunday with my SIL and our girls for a day trip!

    September 5, 2017 at 6:58 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I needed those naps, each and every one. I might have indulged a bit much, though. And definitely doesn’t sound like you had enough time for naps!

      September 6, 2017 at 6:02 pm
  • Reply San

    3 naps! And a free frappuccino! And time with Ridley! It does sound like you really took care of yourself. <3

    September 20, 2017 at 5:02 pm
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