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Ups and Downs in the Middle Miles of the IVF Marathon

Right now, I feel I am at mile 13 of a marathon.  Issues are starting to pop up, you are realizing that you aren’t infallible, that this is REAL, and you are starting to get to the point that you a) shouldn’t do math and b) shouldn’t make any major decisions. I’m just hoping I don’t hit the wall. 

Let’s just say that this weekend was a rollercoaster of emotions, several wins, and several moments where I just said F*** (in all caps). IVF thus far isn’t taking such a toll on my body, but the responsibility of it and questions that it brings up are starting to really sink in. 

Case in point? I messed up. 

 

After having a session with my psychiatrist which ended with us reopening the discussion of me being hard on myself when it comes to some very particular aspects of my life (oh, hell, most aspects of my life), I dropped the ball on two parts of IVF. Saturday morning, I totally forgot to go in for labs and ultrasound. 

I could go into the details of why I missed it, what contributed to me forgetting, but to make a very long story short, I forgot to go in for labs and ultrasound while I was WRITING A POST ABOUT IVF RISKS. Literally talking.about.IVF. Luckily, after a series of worried emails and calls and freaking out and then finally talking to a nurse, I was told that I had not, in fact, ruined everything and that things would be ok because I wasn’t super far along. 

WHEWF. 

The rest of the day was fine, and that night I did my shots before heading out into the night (which was spectacular, and I’ll get to in a minute. 

Sunday morning, as I was getting my coffee before heading down to the hospital, I double checked my meds and realized that I didn’t have another Gonal F pen. Nor did I have enough for the night, even. I got in touch with the nurses and let’s just say that the rest of the morning went by in a blur of tears, feeling worthless and irresponsible, and then a MAJOR scare of how much we were going to have to pay to get the medication filled locally. 

I just felt so dumb. Dumb, wreckless, irresponsible. I totally accept all responsibility for the snafu, but I guess I didn’t understand what they meant by “refill”–I thought that “refills” meant subsequent IVF cycles, not just as needed. I had noticed that we were getting lower, but I guess it didn’t occur to me how fast we would run out, nor how long it would take to get the refills in (48 hrs from the specialty pharmacy). 

You know those times when, during a race, you realize that you forgot your fuel or your fuel fell out or you dropped your fuel? That was this time. But, like one hopes will happen in a race, your support crew meets you and throws you an emergency just-in-case pack of fuel/glasses/whatever. 

That was this moment. I am SO lucky to have an amazing support crew in my husband, who a) can stay calm under this sort of pressure (hello, doctor) and be knows how to deal with Susie meltdowns. Another long story short, MY HUSBAND IS MAGICAL and saved the day in a huge way. A HUGE way. 

Moments like these make me freak out. They make me question if I am fit to be a mom. If I am worthless. They take me to a very defeatist place. I REALLY smell a Therapy Thoughts post on that topic now. But what about the rest of the weekend?

Friday, I got ramen with Tiffy at Furious Spoon (which has awesome jams and tasty eats, if a tad overpriced!). We are both in the midst of these mental storms right now. She is dealing with her foot and trying to progress back to running, and I am “hormonal” (well, honestly, I have hormones, and that is pretty decent change over normally). We laid it all out there (and I got double pickled vegetables, because you know me), something we probably should have been careful about considering we are both nearing a certain part of our cycle. #HotMessExpress but at least in good company.

The highlight of Saturday was Saturday night. Alex and I celebrated our Holidays with a night out and Phantom of the Opera! We try to do something special every holiday season (last year we went to dinner and Nutcracker, the past years movies and sushi), and this was our night out! 

We went to Nick’s Seafood Grill at the Merchandise Mart, and it was delightful. We started with Sweet Chili Calamari (as seen on IG),

then I got the Black and Bleu Ahi Tuna (which I have no clue why it was called Black and Bleu because it was cajun dusted with a sesame slaw. DELICIOUS ahi perfection, but definitely not Black and Bleu…) and Alex got the Lump Crab Cake Sandwich. Our dinners were fabulous, and the perfect pre-theater meal!

Then, it was time for Phantom! Alex hunted and splurged on some great seats for us, and we had a fabulous view of the stage (and all the people to watch) from the first balcony. The performers were incredible, and it was great to finally see the show live (I’ve known the music for a long time (and I used to be able to do most of the notes!), and I’ve seen the movie).

I also loved watching Alex watch the show. He was so in to it! It tickles me how much he loves theater. It is a real, honest to goodness treat or moment for him. One of these days, he needs to see Les Miserables (that show changed my life) and Aida (the Elton John version, not the opera. I’ve seen it 3 times). 

Sunday night came to a close with doggy walks and dinner at home. After an emotional weekend (and particularly an emotional morning) of ups and downs, I needed to have some neutral time with Alex (who is finally off of service!). We literally laid on the couch with Ridley, my with my scarf over my eyes, just chilling. We had an early dinner and watched UVA.

Yet again, the ups and downs of a marathon=> life (and #IVF) #infertility Click To Tweet

This week is going to be a bit “hold on for dear life”–I’m going to have to play it by ear, essentially. We are thinking the egg retrieval will happen towards the end of the week, but I am now on the anti-ovulation shots as well as the ovary stimulation shots (at night). Things are continuing to increase, I have follicles (who knows how many, but still, YAS). I am continuing to feel well overall, though I am obviously a bit more emotional than normal. Probably shouldn’t make any major life decisions this week… OH WAIT.

Yet again. Marathon = life.

What mile of the marathon are you on?

Have you ever forgotten or lost something midrace?

Ramen/pho/noodles/rice/sushi?

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70 Comments

  • Reply Megan @ Skinny Fitalicious

    Oh what a weekend! I’ve had space moments likes that. It happens to everyone and you get through it which I know you will!
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    January 9, 2017 at 5:22 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I know they happen to every one… and normally it would have been like, DRAT. not F***

      January 11, 2017 at 10:25 am
  • Reply Carla

    So so so very much here. But one thought leapt out of me more than anything else.
    Your love of watching Alex watch the show. That speaks volumes about your bond. And because of that I believe everything will be OK <3
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    January 9, 2017 at 5:25 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, Carla. You are amazing.

      January 11, 2017 at 10:23 am
  • Reply Heather @Lunging Through Life

    Oh my gosh I would have been freaking. Not just about the ultrasound in the morning but then the refill. Ahhh I am so sorry you have to deal with all of that! But glad everything worked out. I’ve never seen the Phantom of the Opera. Glad you guys had a great time!! I’m on mile DNF of the marathon right now. Things came up this weekend that just completed halted it.
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    January 9, 2017 at 5:56 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I heard, and I am so so sorry to hear about it. I am going to check in with you right (now) and see how things are going.

      January 11, 2017 at 10:24 am
  • Reply Jamie@TheMomGene

    Okay, listen very carefully…I did the EXACT same thing with the medication. I ran out and there was no way to get it from the specialty pharmacy in time and the office had to call every Walgreens in the city to find one that had some AND I had to pay a boatload of money to get the two vials I needed. I am a responsible person. Overly so, as my husband would claim, but we just can’t manage it all. There is SO much to remember with IVF plus your regular life. It happens to everybody. This does not mean you are not fit to be a mother. This means you are exactly fit to be a mother because you are a normal human living your life as best you can. I am praying for this week for you and calmness despite it all. I would hug you if I could. Alas, Nashville is far far away.
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    January 9, 2017 at 6:49 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You are amazing, Jamie. And I hope that one day we will get to give each other that hug. There just feels like there is such a weight of importance on every single part of this. I am not good with feeling like I’ve messed up on a small scale–this is making me even more anxious about messing up.

      January 11, 2017 at 10:20 am
  • Reply Kelli @ Hungry Hobby

    Girl, you are human. Humans forget shit, even important stuff. Why? Because we are human and we have 15 billion responsibilities going on at any one time. I’m glad it worked out and you were able to enjoy your weekend!
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    January 9, 2017 at 7:09 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Being human… can I be an Android? That might be easier…

      January 11, 2017 at 10:16 am
  • Reply Julie @ Running in a Skirt

    Hey Susie! What a rough weekend! Stay strong and positive– you’ve got so much going on!
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    January 9, 2017 at 7:16 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You too, Julie, YOU TOO. LOVE YOU

      January 11, 2017 at 10:15 am
  • Reply Laura @ This Runner's Recipes

    Your analogy of the middle miles is so appropriate.You crush it at marathons and you will also at this. Who judges a race just by the middle miles anyway?
    So glad you and Alex enjoyed some quality time! As always your food is making me hungry.
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    January 9, 2017 at 7:30 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank goodness they don’t judge it by the middle miles. Otherwise we would all be goners, right?

      January 11, 2017 at 10:15 am
  • Reply Cora

    And when your son or daughter has these moments in life where they feel completely dumb and worthless… you’ll be able to sit them down in your beautiful Suz way and say…. “I hear you.”
    We all have these moments. I’m pretty pro at them. We feel completely stupid, worthless, dumb etc etc. But we are human and its impossible to go through a marathon – I’m guessing? – without any imperfections. This is just when we need to call on those supports of ours (and throw scarfs over our eyes) and I’m SO happy that you have Alex to be one of yours. And I’m sooooooo excited you guys got out to the Theatre!! Eee hearing about Alexs’ enjoyment made me tickle pink. <3 you Suz.
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    January 9, 2017 at 7:40 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Love you, Cora. And thank you. There is no such thing as perfect, and I should have known that some bumps would be coming! We just have to keep remembering the bigger picture, right?

      January 11, 2017 at 10:14 am
  • Reply lindsay Cotter

    you are human. You are doing so much. You only have one brain. So yes, go easy on yourself. You didn’t mess up. LIfe is just full. I get it though. But glad you got away to take time and enjoy a date night. <3
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    January 9, 2017 at 7:49 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      That date night was so necessary, and the next night when he was able to come home early, and we could just be.

      January 11, 2017 at 10:13 am
  • Reply kat

    Girl I’m so sorry you had a bit of a rough time this weekend but then again I am thankful that everything is still moving forward as planned! I think you just need to take a beat and breathe again – you are only human, mistakes happen. My sister tried for 10 years before she was finally blessed with a son and let me tell you, I’ve never met a woman MORE meant to be a mother. Those who have to wait and fight to be a mom make the best ones. You will be amazing – you already are <3
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    January 9, 2017 at 8:09 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, lady. I am so glad that you sister finally had success!

      January 11, 2017 at 10:12 am
  • Reply Rae

    Ugggh, I don’t like all this stress for you! You are human and fallible just like anyone else. Making a mistake has no reflection whatsoever on your worth as a human being or your capacity for loving and responsible motherhood. You kind of have a lot on your plate right now. Deep breaths. You can do this!
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    January 9, 2017 at 8:15 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thanks, Rae. You know how it is–this just means so much to us, that it is terrifying to think that you’ve messed it up!

      January 11, 2017 at 10:11 am
  • Reply Michelle

    You are looking gorgeous! Hormones suit you😊 Be kind and gentle to yourself–just saying!!

    January 9, 2017 at 8:35 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you Michelle! And thank you–I am definitely trying to be gentle to myself, but it isn’t easy!

      January 11, 2017 at 10:11 am
  • Reply jennifer

    I think that calimari makes everythingbetter!
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    January 9, 2017 at 8:40 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I wish I had had more of it after the real catastrophe!

      January 11, 2017 at 10:10 am
  • Reply Suzelyfe's mommy, Clare

    It was interesting for me as well.
    As your mom, as moms will do, I panicked when I saw your texts, and that you’d called and that you couldn’t reach me when you needed me.
    As part of your support team, I need to be there to support you, when you need me.
    Cue “keep calm, call mom” time.
    However, once I finally connected with you by text and found that you weren’t dying and that Alex had been on his white charger again, I could breathe.
    As I tearily told Eric–we had all been given the greatest gift on earth when Alex walked into your life– and he agreed with me!
    One day, I hope that Suzlyfe will ask me to do another post like I did on being her support team as a crohns mom–this time as a support mom of a daughter who wants so much to be what I am-a mom. But, I am HER mom. It’s an interesting and sort of strange place to find myself.
    Susie needs her space, her husband, her dog, her life, and she so wants to be what I already am–a mom.
    I can’t fix this IF journey of hers, I can’t run the race for her, I can’t kiss the boo-boo and make it all better for her.
    All I can do is be here giving her as much love and support as I can and just praying that one day she will finally know and really understand the meaning of “mother love” The power of that one emotion is, I believe, the strongest force on earth.
    So, perhaps in the words of the great philosopher Yoda, all I can say is “may the force be with you” Susie.
    I know I am.
    Mommy

    January 9, 2017 at 8:58 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      WOrk on that post–it sounds like a fantastic one.
      I would have loved to have connected with you during the heat of things that day, but I also knew that there wasn’t much you could have done. Perhaps it would have only made things work by making you worry like that.

      January 11, 2017 at 10:09 am
  • Reply Sandra Laflamme

    Oh my, how very stressful but you are lucky to have the best support system!! I can’t imagine what its like to go through all of this. I am sure that you sharing your story is going to help so many other women. Happy to hear that you were able to get out and enjoy a great night. Phantom is so wonderful! Thinking of you!
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    January 9, 2017 at 9:09 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I sure hope it is helpful! If nothing else, it is helping me (selfish but true)

      January 11, 2017 at 10:08 am
  • Reply Emily

    dear dear precious Susie, you are not worthless; God made you, and that already gives you worth. <3 No mom is perfect, but a mom who loves her babies is priceless. I see you persevering and not giving up, and that is super amazing to me. Keep sharing these with us. Still praying for you. <3
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    January 9, 2017 at 9:30 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you so much, Emily. I am always so very grateful for your support and love.

      January 11, 2017 at 10:07 am
  • Reply Ellen @ My Uncommon Everyday

    Even though you’re a damn unicorn, you’re also a person and you’re allowed to make mistakes (even scary/big ones). I’m glad everything worked out and that Alex saved the day. And with your heart and humor (and as many times as you’ve talked me into sense), no worries; you’ll be a fantastic mom.
    YES Phantom was great. I adore theater.
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    January 9, 2017 at 9:39 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I’m making some real realizations about how I process problems. Stay tuned. xoxox

      January 11, 2017 at 10:07 am
  • Reply Suzy

    Ah, you’re cute. I’m doing a post-marathon recovery jog right now, bagel in one hand, beer in the other, and feeling good. I’m always gearing up for the next marathon though, because that’s life, right? Okay, so, here’s the thing about confidence as a parent, in story form, of course. One Friday evening about 4 years ago, Andrew and I were sitting on my balcony, drinking wine and listening to music. We talked out there for hours about our kids. We worried about them, we worried about ourselves as parents. We questioned everything, just like you’re questioning yourself right now. But then? I had an epiphany. That the for real shitty parents are the ones that are sitting out there with no idea where their kids are, and they don’t care. They drunkily wave their hands in the air, dismissing any sort of responsibility or worry, their hand-waving tactic being their only parenting skill they’ve acquired over the years. Are we perfect? NOT EVEN CLOSE. But we give a shit, and that’s the difference between a good parent and a bad one. You and Alex are going to be amazing, because look at you! Already! You already give so m any shits about your baby and it’s in the earliest beginning stage possible. <3 Go on, now. Get those eggies all ripe and juicy. xo
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    January 9, 2017 at 9:52 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I totally agree with you, Suz. If we WEREN’T worried, it would be a much bigger problem, and way more worrisome. At least we give a flying F, right?

      January 11, 2017 at 10:04 am
  • Reply Suzy

    I typed out a novel and it got deleted. WAHHHHHHH. It was such a good one, too. Maybe it’ll turn up sometime today, if I’m a good girl.
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    January 9, 2017 at 9:54 am
  • Reply Suzlyfe's mommy, Clare

    Well, I sent in a comment but I think the bloggids ate it,
    So long story short, in the words of the great philosopher, Yoda,
    “may the force be with you”
    I am!
    Mommy

    January 9, 2017 at 10:01 am
    • Reply Suzlyfe's mommy, Clare

      Blog-gods…….sheesh!

      January 9, 2017 at 11:23 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Well, he is the man.

      January 11, 2017 at 10:02 am
  • Reply Danielle @ The T-Rex Runner

    Honestly, there are so many appointments and details and things to remember associated with IVF (well, based on my understanding of it based on what you’ve written) that I’d be shocked if this didn’t happen to EVERYONE at some point or another! Also – I would probably forget just because the concept of going to a doctor on a Saturday is so foreign to me. That’s totally understandable!
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    January 9, 2017 at 10:03 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Legitimately–I was just going about my Saturday, then I was like OH ***. That is supposed to be MY day!

      January 11, 2017 at 10:02 am
  • Reply Sarah @ BucketListTummy

    I’m glad you enjoyed phantom of the opera! We ALL have these forgetful down moments, they are completely normal especially when you have many dates/refills to worry about. You are going through so much change right now so it’s going to happen. Just remember to give yourself some grace 🙂
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    January 9, 2017 at 10:30 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I am trying to do just that. Thank you, Sarah!

      January 11, 2017 at 10:01 am
  • Reply Eric

    I have to chime in, my first marathon I dropped my second set of fuel at mile 15. I tried to rely on grabbing oranges from kids, but I’m pretty sure that combined with the dehydration (75+ out) made me slam into the wall at mile 19. Still finished, but it was hard. I also forgot sunscreen on a portion of my calf’s on both sides, and learned this only during my first shower back.

    I am 98 days from my next marathon, did a 15 miler Saturday, did a 17 miler 2 weeks before that. Getting back to work. Getting those micro/macro cycles worked out.

    All of the above on the food, all asian food is delicious (as long as there’s no salmon, I’m allergic to just that fish, which is weird).
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    January 9, 2017 at 10:39 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Yay for your next marathon! I’m glad that you’ve taken some time off, though–your body needed it. And now you will be prepared for your race 😀

      January 11, 2017 at 10:00 am
  • Reply Lacey@fairytalesandfitness

    Do not be so hard on yourself! You are the complete opposite of worthless. You are such a strong woman! Your dinner looks so tasty. I think the reason they call it black and bleu is because it is not cooked. That’s what they call burger when they are near rare.
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    January 9, 2017 at 10:55 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thanks, Lacey. ANd not a bad point. But it is still a silly name 😀

      January 11, 2017 at 9:59 am
  • Reply Sarah @ Sweet Miles

    I don’t even think I knew you were doing IVF! I will be sending prayers your way! You got this! I loved your analogy to the marathon, so true. We are all on a different “mile” in the marathon 🙂
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    January 9, 2017 at 10:56 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you so much, Sarah! I just need to wait for the next mile, right?

      January 11, 2017 at 9:58 am
  • Reply Nicole @ Blunders and Absurdities Blog

    Pad Thai. I could eat it every day for the rest of my life. Glad you were able to work everything out!!

    January 9, 2017 at 12:00 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Mmmmm I love Pad Thai!

      January 11, 2017 at 9:57 am
  • Reply Marcia

    I showed up bibless to not one but 2 races last year alone. And it all turned out just fine. And IVF will for you too. It’s all SO very complex. I had pharmacists give me the freaking WRONG thing. It’s a wild ride I hope you’ll smile about once you get way past it. Hang in there.
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    January 9, 2017 at 2:17 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I would lose it if the pharmacists gave me the wrong thing. I would absolutely lose it.

      January 11, 2017 at 9:57 am
  • Reply Deborah @ Confessions of a mother runner

    Everyone and I mean everyone, doubts their ability to be a parent. There will be many times where you just think you are not up to it but you are we all are. When your child comes to you for advice, you will tell them that we all feel this way sometimes. Life is definitely an ultra marathon
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    January 9, 2017 at 4:13 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Life is like the Ragnar of marathons–where instead of runners, you have more marathons! I’m honestly glad that I am doubting my ability to be a parent–it means that I have a conscience!

      January 11, 2017 at 9:56 am
  • Reply Jo @ Living MInt Green

    IVF woes aside, you and Alex are such a nice looking couple. FIRE EMOJIS!!!
    Lots of ’em.

    Life is so weird hey. We have to do all of societal contract thingies, create a life for ourselves, raise other humans, have fun, and try to not get too stressed and/or mess everything up too terribly. And then we die! Now insert the “WELP” lady emoji.
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    January 9, 2017 at 4:53 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      SO MANY EMOTIONS AND EMOJIS
      Insert Freaking out and dead emojis

      January 11, 2017 at 9:53 am
  • Reply Lisa @ Mile by Mile

    Ive had races where I cant find my gels in my flipbelt, and I waste way too much energy searching for them! But it always works out in the end, as Im sure it will for you too. I cant imagine that lots of other women don’t make similar mistakes throughout the process- it all sounds so overwhelming and complicated!
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    January 9, 2017 at 6:14 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I think the biggest part of it is how much you have invested in the whole thing. If it was everyday matters, eh, whatever. But this is I>V>F!!!! (cue thunder and lightning)

      January 11, 2017 at 9:52 am
  • Reply Tiffany @ The Chi-Athlete

    Oh my Lord, friend. I wonder if I rubbed my forgetful, clumsy, random crap mess all over you! Or, maybe we just reached an apex at the same time.

    Who knows, really.

    I ate brownies, so I’m better. Still clumsy and forgetful, but better. <3 I'm happy that everything worked out, but I can see you as one exhausted Suzicorn. If Yoshi only knew…

    Also! I'm so happy that you and Alex got to go be YOU GUYS! I'm sure that a wonderful night out and some downtime with that man helped after being so strung out. LOVE YOU!
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    January 9, 2017 at 6:16 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      LOVE YOU BACK.
      I think we both rubbed off on each other, lol. There’s a lot of anxiety going on between the two of us. Brownies definitely make things better, especially if you can’t have a beer…

      January 11, 2017 at 9:51 am
  • Reply Heather @ Polyglot Jot

    Oh my goodness I so would have reacted the same as you. I’m so glad that you have such a lovely support system and things worked out. I’m glad that through those downs you also had some delicious eats, time with your hubby, and time with your friend. I try to spend time with my support system when I’m feeling all sorts of things kicking up.
    I hope that you continue to feel well <3
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    January 9, 2017 at 7:08 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I’m so lucky with my family and support system (including you!). Thank you so much and I hope that YOU are feeling well!

      January 11, 2017 at 9:47 am
  • Reply Sarah

    oh, sweetie. I’m sorry there were so many downs to your weekend. I hope you can cut yourself some slack! First of all, you’re human. And secondly, this is all 100% new to both of you, not to mention super complicated stuff you’re going through. I’m sure it’s easy to spiral and beat yourself up but I hope that you can remember that you deserve to treat yourself better than that (although I know that’s obviously way easier said than done). I’m glad Alex is such a great help – you two will get through this TOGETHER! Sounds like you guys had a well-deserved date night 😀

    January 10, 2017 at 4:51 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I know, I know… but there are just such high stakes and so much money involved. It is SCARY

      January 11, 2017 at 9:47 am
      • Reply Sarah

        *hug*

        January 11, 2017 at 10:06 am
  • Reply Kristy from Southern In Law

    Oh girl, I just want to give you a big huge HUG!

    I’m not surprised you forgot though.. you have SO much on your brain right now and it’s times like that it’s so easy to forget things. Whenever I’m in seasons of busyness my phone is a constantly buzzing/alarm sounding contraption reminding me to do every little thing I’d otherwise forget.
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    January 12, 2017 at 11:02 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      And normally I do too! Serves me right 😀

      January 13, 2017 at 9:58 am

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