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How Running has Prepared Me for Infertility Treatment

Yesterday, I received a big box. A box that can and will change my life. Because other than a packing slip with a ridiculous price tag, that box contains my IVF injection medications. Thankfully, I am a runner, and I have learned some major lessons to help me on this journey.

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When we had our meeting with the doctors at our IVF registration, as we talked about all the injections and the need to mix and fix the injections, it seemed more than just a bit overwhelming, but still with a little bit of space. Yesterday, as I held that box and thought of the work that was to come, all that was to come, sh** got real. 

I now have 2 weeks exactly before I start my injections. If my mom were here, she would be talking about midpoints (she loooovvves a good midpoint): we are at the midpoint between starting injections and our registration appointments. I wanted to share with you all again a post that I wrote in 2014 during training for the Twin Cities Marathon. While Marine Corps Marathon changed the course of my life in many ways, training for Twin Cities profoundly changed me

As I get closer to the start of IVF, I remember just how running has prepared me for infertility treatment. @suzlyfe http://suzlyfe.com/marathon-mindset-pregnancy

Rereading this post gave me shivers. It still rings so true, even with everything that has happened over the past two years. What follows is the original post.

Two and a half years ago, I had never run further than 5 (maybe 6) miles. That fall I had suffered some really terrible peroneal tendonitis (like, I couldn’t run out of the way if a taxi was barreling down Broadway at me. Also, this was when I lived in NYC). But I had already made up my mind that I was going to do the half marathon with Team Challenge at the end of the school year (also the end of grad school for me).

My first half marathon finish line. VA Wine Country Half Marathon 2012

My first half marathon finish line. VA Wine Country Half Marathon 2012

I’ve written about my running history some in the past, most notably, this post that I penned for National Running Day, about Why I Run. I often mention my little tag line of “moving beyond expectation,” and combined with the “why” of why I run, I think you will understand why I decided to go after the marathon. A) Honestly, I didn’t know if I’d ever be in this kind of shape again, but most importantly b) to believe that I can move beyond expectation.

Now, this is obvious. But stay with me for a sec longer.  I promise this is more than just a “duuur, we get it, post.” Or, at least I hope that it is.

Yesterday, in the comments, (and thank you ALL for your confidence and support! SO MUCH PRESSURE!) AnnMarie mentioned how the month of September helped her to realize that she was capable of more than she ever thought. Compound that with the fact that I had a doctor’s appointment yesterday (just an appointment for a referral from my GP) where I had cause to mention that in the next year or so, Alex and I will likely need to start trying to have a family. Now, originally, all of this behbeh talk was to wait until after residency, but then upon consulting with my gyn-endocrine-fertility specialist (yup, I’ve got one of them too!) we decided that we might want to move that up a year. At least the discussion. At the time–this being maybe 3 months ago?—I was really taken aback—the thought that I might be trying to have a CHILD in a year? HOLY ____ (insert whatever you like in the blank).

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But it wasn’t so startling just for the sheer fact that I might be trying to get PREGNANT in a year (That part, I’m honestly still coming to terms with). It was the fact that we are going to have to be prepared to put my body through the ringer—again—in order to do so. Beyond the child itself, beyond the finances, beyond the decisions, I have to be ready to accept that my body, this vessel that I have only seemingly just NOW gotten under control, is once again no longer going to be mine. And that I will know it going into it.

Classic pre marathon face

Classic pre marathon face

And that is terrifying.

I went to yoga last night, and one of my favorite instructors was teaching, and I’m a sucker for her, so I took her class, even though I knew that I wouldn’t be able to do the peak pose (I can’t really do forearm stand because of my rotator cuff. Long story, but it is just really weak). Well, that class ended up bring out a whole new side of me, to the point that I was doing the squished-up cry face during final shavasana (not totally crying, but definitely getting there).  Tanya was talking about “decide now” and “pick up your feet” ie the idea that a) you have to decide to start, b) if you don’t ask, you likely won’t receive, and c) it is ok to be uncomfortable.

Decide now, and if you are uncomfortable, that is OK #infertility #running Click To Tweet

Well, I would agree with that. Any of us who have run and trained for goal, really, know that it is ok to feel uncomfortable. And it got me thinking, in this very roundabout way, to how taking on this marathon was my next step in getting comfortable with the upcoming discomfort that I’m sure will be me trying to get pregnant.

Another good option, IMHO

Another good option, IMHO

However, you know that between ice cream, pickles, and constant hunger, I’m basically already there in acting like one. Plus I demand that Alex rub my feet. So yeah. But seriously.

I ran/run/will run because who would have thought that I, with all of the crap that is wrong with my body, would be about to run my second marathon? That I could do it healthfully? I took a step, I made myself uncomfortable. I set an intention, and I have worked my butt off to follow through. Sure, I could have made myself more uncomfortable, but I found the threshold of my discomfort and comfort, and I played in that space until I was ready to push it more, and I felt that my body was ready. And now I feel that I am, at least for this. Growing a human inside of me is a bit different.

But you know what?

For the first time, perhaps ever, I actually believe that there might really be a chance, that it might be possible. After all, I did the seemingly impossible by running a marathon. I’m not saying I will be able to do so in the end, but for the first time, I know that I will mentally be ready to apply myself to that challenge when I get to it. Mentally, I am not ready to be a mother yet. But I am mentally ready to take on the challenge of transforming my body so that I might do so.

But if they make me do speed work, they have another think coming. Also, I call the ice cream. And the pickles better be from q. Runger is real even when you aren’t running.

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When has your experience working towards one thing opened you up to being ready for something else?

What is something about your future that scares you, that you know you will need to prepare yourself for? For me, it definitely getting and being pregnant, and once again losing that control over my body.

Thank you as always for your support and love! Linking up with Amanda for Thinking Out Loud.

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93 Comments

  • Reply Beth @ Running with the Sunrise

    Being pregnant, and especially giving birth, really scares me, too. I’ll be turning 32 in December, so my hubby and I will probably start thinking about trying soon, too. That change in mentality is really scary–you go from thinking that having babies is something that you’ll do far in the future to realizing that the future is now. Best of luck to you and Alex!
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    September 30, 2014 at 6:17 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you so much! There is a big part of me that wants to wait, and a bit part of me that is excited. I am just glad that I have some more time yet.

      October 1, 2014 at 10:03 am
  • Reply Tina Muir

    Awww Suzy, that is so brave and honest that you shared all that with us. Definitely understand what you are going through, and honestly, that is a big part of the reason I am making the most of my career and ability while I still can. I don’t see it being too long. I am sure it will give you lots of extra motivation this weekend, and you will rock it! No pressure, just enjoy it 🙂 Take what your body gives you!
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    September 30, 2014 at 6:22 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I so respect what you are doing with your career and choices–you are so gifted, and that gift might be fleeting (and at least you know that you have your coaching and teaching and degree to take you forward after) but I love that you are making it all you can. That was what I did with my riding during college–I knew I would never have the same opportunity again.
      I wish I could have a headset with me on Sunday with you in my ear!

      October 1, 2014 at 10:05 am
  • Reply Danielle@T-Rex Runner

    BAH I totally, 100% understand where you are coming from. I have a host of issues of my own (because of course I do) that will make it very hard to conceive, but I’m not even a little bit mentally ready. I’m getting older and I know I can’t wait forever, but I kind of want to? I know exactly how you feel about giving up control of your body. I feel like I barely have control of mine as it is. But, like you said, the marathon proves to us that we can do the seemingly impossible, and do it healthfully. You can do it! Good luck this weekend!
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    September 30, 2014 at 6:51 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I know you SO understand this–both from the emotional fear standpoint and the physical fear standpoint. We both have worked so hard to get ourselves put back together, it is terrifying to think that I might be throwing to the wind. THANK YOU!

      October 1, 2014 at 10:06 am
  • Reply Stacie @ SimplySouthernStacie

    OMG a baybay! What an exciting time for you : ) I’m pretty terrified of pregnancy and having kids honestly. That’s why I like my cats… a lot.
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    September 30, 2014 at 6:54 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      OH SLOW DOWN not yet haha

      October 1, 2014 at 9:56 am
  • Reply Annmarie

    I love your perspective and your honesty. My own pregnancies scared the bejesus out of me and while they were both intended in a certain way they were also unexpected (long story with random medical history) so I had to deal with overcoming the idea of transforming my body and my life very quickly. I think what helped most was that I didn’t have any other choice but to just accept it and realize that it didn’t mean my body falling apart or gaining 80 lbs. I controlled what I could throughout each of my pregnancies and while my body isn’t the same (ie. boobs will never be the same), I am in better shape and a stronger person. I think you will find yourself in much of the same shoes. It WILL scare the crap out of you but you WILL come out of it realizing you can handle anything life has in store for you.
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    September 30, 2014 at 7:15 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      That’s exactly how I feel. That this will be like the marathon–scary and terrifying, but one of the best things I have ever pushed myself to do. And hearing your side of it helps so much.
      I may need you on speed dial.

      October 1, 2014 at 10:00 am
  • Reply Deborah @ Confessions of a Mother Runner

    Didn’t realize that you have only been running long distances for few years. Wow how far you’ve come!
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    September 30, 2014 at 7:17 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Hey, you know me–I like to “be great” haha

      October 1, 2014 at 9:59 am
  • Reply cait @pieceofcait

    absolutely loved! so real and raw <3 and thanks for opening. I seear yoga has the effect. and some poses open you up the feelings you maybe thought you didn't have. i always say.. yoga is a good idea.. you never know what can come from it <3
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    September 30, 2014 at 7:26 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Yoga is indeed a good idea (unless you are still dealing with a strained muscle–trust me). And thank you for the support

      October 1, 2014 at 9:59 am
  • Reply Renee @ Bendiful Blog

    I love your honesty! Life has a way of testing us and challenging us right up to the breaking point. Like crying in yoga. I wish I had planned a pregnancy mine were both kind of Oops babies. And I always wonder if that would have changed my perspective on the whole process. If you think about it “birthing” a marathon is A LOT like actual child birthing. You have crazy food cravings, your always tired and your body sort of wants to throw in the towel but you keep going. Then on the day of the “Race” It’s an all out war for hours till you finally have your prize! Both are humbling and raw and leave you with either super awesome stories to share with others or the kind of stories you only tell during an adult game of truth or dare under the influence. You will be fantastic at both babies and marathons 🙂
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    September 30, 2014 at 7:34 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you. Just thank you.

      October 1, 2014 at 9:58 am
  • Reply Heather @fitncookies

    Being that we are going to start trying in the next year, I feel like we couldn’t be any more similar, ha. It’s hard on the body, and it’s really scary to me to think of. I remember a few months ago, just thinking of changing my body it freaked me out. i’m definitely coming to terms with that happening, and excited about perhaps growing a baby. The thought of not being able to get pregnant is the thought that scares me the most! I like that you compared it to the marathon <3
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    September 30, 2014 at 7:38 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      How about we move next door to each other and do the Friends thing where we run back and forth between each other and get each other through it??

      October 1, 2014 at 9:57 am
  • Reply Lisa @ Running Out Of Wine

    I am also pretty scared of being pregnant/becoming a mother. I know when the time comes I will get through it and come out stronger just like what happens with running, but I think its mostly a fear of the unknown. I think that most of my major life decisions have made me more prepared for the next one. To think back on where I have come from, its been quite a journey. I remember being a teenager living in the small safe bubble of my hometown thinking I would never leave. But taking chances and stepping out of your comfort zone can really lead to unexpected greatness.
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    September 30, 2014 at 8:36 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I think that most of my major life decisions have made me more prepared for the next one. –so true
      But taking chances and stepping out of your comfort zone can really lead to unexpected greatness.–Even truer

      October 1, 2014 at 9:56 am
  • Reply Brianna @ I run He tris

    I can guarantee that you are going to be the coolest mom ever! The fact that your body has been able to handle training for two marathons and many other races, you are going to rock this pregnancy thing. I 2000% understand what you say about your body not being yours. I’m at a similar point. I was a little surprised I got pregnant so quickly with Brice but then for 9 months my body was a vessel for him and then for another 14ish months I had to be mindful of what I ate/drank/medicine because of breastfeeding. Now that my body is finally mine and we’re thinking about doing it all again has me a little apprehensive. BUT I can promise you that being a mom is all worth the sacrifice!
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    September 30, 2014 at 9:11 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I love hearing this from you–I know how much you love and cherish your family, but that you have also struggled and succeeded with maintaining a sense of self balancing your life and passions with your family’s. This is a massive vote of confidence, but also so real.

      October 1, 2014 at 9:45 am
  • Reply Courtney @RunningforCupcakes

    I know that without a doubt you will be the coolest/best/most amazing mom in the world. You are so strong and I know you will be able to handle it when the time comes.
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    September 30, 2014 at 10:31 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You are the sweetest. Promise you make me cupcakes when the whole thing does go down?

      October 1, 2014 at 9:43 am
  • Reply Heather @ FITaspire

    I love the parallels here – sports really does teach us so much about LIFE, whether we realize it or not. The dedication and patience it takes for endurance running will be skills that you’ll likely need as a mom. 🙂
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    September 30, 2014 at 10:42 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      So true. Why can’t all people be runners/fit people who understand that!

      October 1, 2014 at 9:42 am
  • Reply Lacey@fairytalesandfitness

    I agree, the thought of that would be scary to me as well. But I hear that it’s the most rewarding job!
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    September 30, 2014 at 11:05 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Just like running–scary as hell to start, but worth it in the end!

      October 1, 2014 at 9:41 am
  • Reply Dannii @ Hungry Healthy Happy

    Great post!
    I am terrified of getting pregnant. I just can’t even think about it.

    Also, I always say to people that I run because I can. I see it as a privileged to be able to.
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    September 30, 2014 at 12:09 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Absolutely–totally a privilege. I definitely feel that way–especially as for a long time I was given a doctor’s note NOT to run, and now I am about to start my second marathon. Truly a blessing.

      October 1, 2014 at 9:40 am
  • Reply Kate @ Baking in Yoga Pants

    I definitely get where you are coming from in your feelings about pregnancy. It’s such an unknown and quite the journey. It’s amazing how each area of life flows into other areas of life. Lessons learned in working out apply to work, relationships, personal struggles, thoughts about the future., and vice versa. Great post per usual 🙂
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    September 30, 2014 at 12:14 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you my dear. There is a lot in life that can scare us, but it doesn’t have to, if we can just find a way to change our perspective about it.

      October 1, 2014 at 9:41 am
  • Reply Rae

    I haven’t had the experience of being pregnant/giving birth, but I know it’s going to be an insane challenge in so many ways. I’m really glad to hear that your marathon training is helping you work through some of the feelings you’re experiencing right now, and I know that you’ll put in the work and meet the challenge when it arises.
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    September 30, 2014 at 1:16 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thanks, love. Plus it is great to know that I have some amazing people behind me.

      October 1, 2014 at 9:38 am
  • Reply Ashley @ Kickashmom

    I’m 30 weeks right now and it’s tough mentally but so worth it. I feel the little kicks in my belly and everything becomes real. I highly recommend you talk to someone throughout pregnancy. It really helps. And keep demanding the foot rubs!
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    September 30, 2014 at 1:27 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I was actually talking to my GP about getting set up with a psych to help me through the process when it comes time. I definitely will make sure to keep up with a counselor–you are so right.

      October 1, 2014 at 9:37 am
  • Reply Sara @ Lake Shore Runner

    1. You are going to rock this marathon. You are so mentally strong and because of that your body is that much stronger.
    2. You are going to be a wonderful mother! I know there will be there challenges but just like anything you’ll rock it.
    3. We need to schedule suz and Sara time ASAP after this weekend.

    As you know the thing that scares me most about the future is the unknown. But that is life!

    September 30, 2014 at 5:23 pm
  • Reply Jenni @ Fitzala

    Baby talk is scary! I’m sure the moms out there say it’s nothing compared to now, but still. I’m happy with how my body is right now and the thought of trying to figure out how to deal with body changes while caring for an infant is intimidating. BUT babies are so worth it. Children are a blessing and I’m sure that (in the future when I’m a mom) I’d trade how I am right now in an instant for my kids. Mentally you may not feel ready, but when it happens you’ll get ready pretty quick 🙂

    Also, you’re going to do awesome at this marathon.
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    September 30, 2014 at 5:38 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I am not going to lie, I am pretty scared of giving up this body that I have worked so hard for, even if it is superficial and whatever. And you are right–things change pretty quickly when you are making it happen–you don’t really have a choice!

      October 1, 2014 at 9:35 am
  • Reply Montana Ross

    Very heartfelt post. I feel like I saw a little more of you! I can’t say that I want to be a parent at this stage in my life, and I may never reach that, but that’s a personal decision for me. Training for the 10 miler I’m running this weekend and the Tough Mudder next month has opened me up to many more emotions than I ever thought were possible. Tough Mudder will be the biggest challenge I put my body through pretty much since I was born- but I’m looking forward to the changes it will bring! I already feel like a more capable, self-sufficient and generally badass person just knowing that I have it coming up! 😉

    On the flip side, I think you will do great in your next marathon, and I also think you’ll be a great mom. From what I’ve read of your blog, you seem like a person willing to do anything for your loved ones..that’s a very important quality to have!
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    September 30, 2014 at 6:18 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you so much for this. And that is so incredible–Tough Mudders are no joke, and running in any capacity, from 2 miles to a marathon, and deciding to devote yourself to that, is a huge decision and commitment. Congrats to you and remember–regardless of what happens the day of, you have already accomplished the hardest leg of the race!

      October 1, 2014 at 9:32 am
      • Reply Montana

        Thank you! The hardest part is signing up haha. Race day adrenaline takes care of the rest.
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        October 1, 2014 at 10:50 am
  • Reply M @readeatwriterun

    My experience of training for marathons helped me going through cancer diagnosis, treatment and survivorship. And the cancer experience has helped me in my running and marathon training.

    I’ve never had kids (many reasons, some of them medical) but I would expect that goal setting, planning, attention to detail and breaking things into smaller, more manageable pieces – skills you’ve learned in marathon training among other places – will help you tremendously with pregnancy and motherhood. I wish you the best on that journey, and all good luck for your upcoming marathon!
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    September 30, 2014 at 6:28 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Oh, thank you so much for this, and for sharing your story. By no means is what I am facing as serious as cancer, but I know what it means to find something that helps you to sort through your life, as fitness, my horses, and running has helped me to get through my own diagnosis, and will help me for my next big change.
      Please stay well!

      October 1, 2014 at 9:29 am
  • Reply your, mommy, Clare

    Ok, from mom’s vantage point—

    Getting pregnant seemed so easy for all my friends, but it wasn’t for us. We did fertility meds, then had a miscarriage at about 4 months. Between the fertility drugs, the pregnancy, the miscarriage, then carrying a pregnancy to term, i was a hormonal nightmare for a couple of years. (Haha, still am!!!)

    The idea of getting my body ready to try to get pregnant WAS a concept that I understood, however most of my friends did not.
    They just started “trying” and then started throwing up the next week!

    Once you make the decision to “go for it” your body isn’t yours alone, ever again…….and you won’t think of it as being yours alone, EVER again.
    It becomes part of something larger, or greater, than just you. Every item that goes in your mouth, ever breath you take—-you are sharing with another human, you become part of a team, a human team. Now, 30 years later, I’ve long since forgotten what it feels like to just be my humble little self. How I am effects everyone in our family. We, moms and dad’s, are responsible for other lives and bodies than just our own. So our bodies all belong to each other.
    When you are ready, it’s a wonderful realization.

    The day you signed up for this big race–you weren’t physically or mentally ready to run it. Now you are.
    When you and Alex are ready to “go for it” you will be ready, and that will be the biggest training program you’ll ever do!

    Let’s get this race done first!!

    September 30, 2014 at 7:10 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Needed this.

      October 1, 2014 at 9:25 am
  • Reply Sarah

    Yayyyyy go out and kick that marathon’s ass! I think people can sometimes underestimate just how BIG and uncomfortable a the decision to run a marathon can be! It’s awesome that you’re feeling so good about your training/health/fitness! Good luck with everything! (Especially the possible future baby-making!)
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    October 1, 2014 at 12:42 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thanks love! And thank goodness I’ve still got time before I have to get to that WINK other thing…

      October 1, 2014 at 3:59 pm
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  • Reply Lauren @ ihadabiglunch

    THIS POST! Oh my gosh how crazy! I obviously am nowhere near that discussion of having a baby haha but I can only imagine that you’re never fully prepared for it. We all feel like kids until a kid is literally lying in your arms and you realize holy crap, that’s mine. But I can only imagine that after everything your body has gone through in the past that it’d be extra scary. For what it’s worth, I think you’d be a great mom! You obviously are hilarious, you take great care of yourself and you and alex make a great team – it’d be such a fun adventure to start together 🙂
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    October 2, 2014 at 10:42 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thhhaaannnkkkk you. Thank you.

      October 2, 2014 at 11:40 am
  • Reply Earl-Leigh

    That is going to be one beautiful baby! Pregnancy and motherhood are scary but worth it. Also, you learn more about the human body than you probably would care to. I’ve always been really high-strung. I needed everything to happen right then and in a certain way. MY way. Then I got pregnant and ended up on bed rest for a few months. I had my days of “great, i’m fat and now i can’t move”. I got over it…eventually…when I got all the pouting done. Babies are worth it and I wouldn’t trade it for one second! (and all that motherly stuff)
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    October 2, 2014 at 3:56 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Sometimes, I think you just need to pout it out. Otherwise, you just sit there wanting to pout and nobody letting you, and it just gets worse. I mean, it can go both ways, and make everything worse rather than better, but you gotta acknowledge your demons to fight them.

      October 6, 2014 at 5:14 pm
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  • Reply Megan @ Skinny Fitalicious

    I think any type of training teaches you to step outside your comfort zone which is invaluable when it comes to challenges we’re faced with in life!
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    December 15, 2016 at 5:09 am
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      Invaluable is one way to put it. We just have to realize how to apply the lessons.

      December 17, 2016 at 8:28 am
  • Reply Jessie R Gipe

    As someone who went through IVF myself, if you have any questions or ever just need to talk – i’m only a message away! Hang in there sweetie. Each injection will be worth the pain & hormone craziness in the end <3.

    December 15, 2016 at 5:17 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you so much, Jessie. I really appreciate it!

      December 17, 2016 at 8:28 am
  • Reply Sara

    My meds are being delivered today and I start them on Monday. It’s very overwhelming but also exciting. Staying positive and feeling your feelings is key. Get lots of foot rubs and cry as often as you need. Xoxoxo
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    December 15, 2016 at 6:48 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I’m so glad that I see you on the 29th. That will be so necessary–for both of us!

      December 17, 2016 at 8:27 am
  • Reply Julie @ Running in a Skirt

    Lots of love in the coming weeks! You can do this!
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    December 15, 2016 at 7:10 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      So much love for you!

      December 17, 2016 at 8:26 am
  • Reply lindsay Cotter

    okay so you get pregnant first and then coach me through it when I get pregnant (maybe in a few years). Cause I can’t run right now and i have no goals besides feeding people. LOL! I lie. but you get my point. MWAH!
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    December 15, 2016 at 7:33 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I would be honored 😀

      December 17, 2016 at 8:26 am
  • Reply Jamie

    Having done IUIs and IVF, I TOTALLY get the fear of loss of control. I now have a 4 yr old with cerebral palsy and twins. Talk about loss of control. Honestly though, it all taught me to let go of the reins a bit. It’s total anarchy at my house and you’ve just got to run crazy with the rest. I’ll be praying for you and Alex!

    December 15, 2016 at 7:48 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you Jamie! And boy, that is quite a lot of chaos at your house! I love what you said–you’ve just got to run crazy with the rest. The inmates running the asylum!

      December 17, 2016 at 8:26 am
  • Reply Cora

    Its amazing how our life experiences eventually get all intertwined. Each experience we have teaches us something, and maybe toughens our skin, and therefore will help us when some other challenge – even if totally unrelated – comes up. We are given challenges for a reason, and if we never go for them – even if we don’t feel 100% ready in the moment – we wont’ have the chance to prove to ourselves how much stronger we now are. This was a great rewind post. And your mother’s comment gave me all the feels. What a mom.

    December 15, 2016 at 8:06 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      If we wait for the perfect moment, we will always be waiting. There is no perfect moment, but there is a right moment–when we are at the top of the bell curve. And yeah, my mom is pretty legit 😀

      December 17, 2016 at 8:25 am
  • Reply Laura @ This Runner's Recipes

    Marathon training does prepare us for so much more than just a marathon! The mental and physical discomfort prepares us for the rough points in life. Most of all, it helps us learn to cope with the unknown. Praying for you through this whole process!
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    December 15, 2016 at 9:22 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you Laura–love you!

      December 17, 2016 at 8:23 am
  • Reply Emily

    Susie, this is so TRUE. It is so hard to be uncomfortable, but I’m realizing more and more every day that God uses these things to help me grow.

    I love that you use running to parallel so many of the other things happening in your life. Now you are in the IVF marathon. <3
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    December 15, 2016 at 9:35 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Let’s hope that I have the right shoes on 😀

      December 17, 2016 at 8:23 am
  • Reply Suzy

    I’m a sucker for comparing running to anything and everything I’ve ever been through, but pregnancy and childbirth are definitely the top two. It’s that delicate balance of working hard and letting go at the same time, which, in essence is the foundation of which love is built upon, so it makes sense. WHOA DEEP THOUGHTS BEFORE 8AM.
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    December 15, 2016 at 9:49 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      #amen #handstosky

      December 17, 2016 at 8:21 am
  • Reply Wendy@Taking the Long Way Home

    I like to compare marathon running to pregnancy, not the other way around. The difference is that with running, for the most part, you have control over what’s happening with your body. I mean, the code browns are a different story…but your train and prepare. I don’t think any amount of preparation can ready you for what pregnancy does to your body. I loved having a baby grow inside me but I didn’t feel well for most of both pregnancies and that kind of sucked. I hated how I gained so much weight both times, even though it was my body doing what it needed to do to maintain and grow those boys. Mentally, it was a struggle for me. Was it worth it? Oh hell yeah. I like what Suzy said above, that it’s all about letting go. For those of us who like to maintain control, that’s a tough one!

    <3
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    December 15, 2016 at 11:34 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      The past few years have really been about learning to let go of control, of rigid structure, and learn to be flexible. Does that mean that I am going to be the best pregnant person ever? HA. But I am in a much better and more prepared place mentally than I have ever been.

      December 17, 2016 at 8:21 am
  • Reply Ange // Cowgirl Runs

    xoxo.
    Love you friend.
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    December 15, 2016 at 12:00 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Love you right back!

      December 17, 2016 at 8:19 am
  • Reply Jennifer @ Fit Nana

    I think you’re probably more mentally ready for to be a mother than you think. Expect the unexpected is a good way to look at it (trust me, NOTHING, with kids, ever happens the way you want/expect/desire/dream it to) and your brain is definitely in the “I’m going to get through this no matter what” mindset. You got this. I wish you the best and hope everything goes well!
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    December 15, 2016 at 12:36 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you so much Jennifer! I think that is the key to life in general–understanding that we can’t control things. Also the most terrifying aspect of life.

      December 17, 2016 at 8:15 am
  • Reply Kimberly Hatting

    Happy thoughts and best wishes are being sent your way! There are so many parallels to pregnancy (AND getting pregnant) and child-rearing that are almost an exact match for the perils (and joy) of marathoning. Chin UP!
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    December 15, 2016 at 3:53 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You know I will keep that chin up!

      December 17, 2016 at 8:13 am
  • Reply Lisa @ RunWiki

    My daughter’s horseback riding habit scares me. It makes my financial future look bleak. lol
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    December 15, 2016 at 3:53 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Ha, I can understand that. As much joy as horses gave me, they do cost a pretty penny.

      December 17, 2016 at 8:13 am
  • Reply Lisa @ Mile by Mile

    And to think of all your have accomplished since you wrote this post!! You are so ready for this!
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    December 15, 2016 at 6:21 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Here’s hoping!

      December 17, 2016 at 8:12 am
  • Reply Liz Shaw

    Gosh I can relate to so much of this. I am sending you big hugs and lots of <3. I just finished my first FET transfer unsuccessfully but have so much hope still in me.

    January 24, 2017 at 4:40 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      And I have so much hope for you! For us all. So many hugs right back.

      January 25, 2017 at 12:55 pm

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