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Girls, Sleep, and Rebounding (3 Months, Weekend Catch Up 4/23)

Oh hey there! Long time no chat! Let’s get caught up on life with a little Weekend Catch Up.

It’s been a hot minute, so no blog posts that you might have missed.

Weekend Catch Up 4/23

1) Emmie is officially 3 months old today! The past week and a half have been a bit rocky, as I think you all know. I admitted the struggle that I was having on instagram.

 

That anxiety attack, though about something seemingly small, became something far larger–like a musical crescendo, my anxiety and underlying depression grew and grew over the days. Feeding the flame? Emmie’s fussiness and my own physical discomfort, as well as the sleep training we are doing. Before everyone freaks out, we are only trying to introduce her to the crib, work on self soothing, and introduce a light nap structure to her day. Ironically, successfully getting her to nap also contributed to anxiety and depression because I didn’t know what to do with myself when she was asleep, and I couldn’t leave the apartment! #damnedifyoudo

I haven’t really admitted this to many beyond Alex, but I finally gave it up on IG on Saturday: since my injury last October and then the really violent rolling of my ankle in December, I have had 2 weeks of being totally pain and fancy free in my entire body. My body just hasn’t felt right. Something different bothers my every day, with the only consistencies being that something will hurt and that the discomfort will be somewhere in the cycle of same places. 

I’ve been avoiding making an appointment because a) Emmie is unpredictable and b) I’m terrified of going in and being told I have yet another injury, especially when I have done next to nothing (yoga, some weights, and walking). 

So the spectre of yet another injury as well as actual (though lesser) discomfort + fussy baby…. yep, hello, situational depression! 

The good news is that since that post, I’ve done better overall. That doesn’t mean that I didn’t call Alex on the verge of tears and needing to hear his voice. But it does mean that overall, I’ve felt more positive and resilient. 

2) Okay, so… Emmie is 3 months old today! How about i actually update you all on her? 

Sleep training/crib training has overall gone well. Not a slam dunk, but she has had several nights where she has only woken up once, and by and larger when she goes down at night, she sleeps well and without needing much consoling once we put her down. Thank goodness, because if she wasn’t sleeping in addition to the fussiness… brain explosion. 

I taught her to grab at things with both feet–like a clamp–and she has been having fun with that. She still hates tummy time, but she did REALLY well with it yesterday, so maybe there is hope!

One thing that has been a really unfortunate regression is the return of her spitting up/reflux and some tummy upset and gas. She had done so much better since I took out soy and dairy, with a relapse during her cold, but she is spitting up a bunch more now. Not as violently as before, but more frequently, making tummy time a delicate dance of scheduling. 

3) I have reintroduced elliptical back into my activities (i haven’t had any discomfort during my short sessions) and Emmie’s naptime schedule as well as the need for her to sit up after feeding means that I have the perfect opportunity to get my 30 minutes in after her morning nap and following feeding. Then I whisk her upstairs, set her up in her rocker, and she watches me or beats at Skippy while I ellipticize. I play music out of my phone and talk or sing to her, and the time passes pretty quickly!

4) I haven’t gotten much Alex time of late–he was on call and has been working hard. But I got to spend time with one of my favorite people and her mom, who is also now officially one of my favorite people as well! Ellen and her mom came to Chicago for the weekend, so we did brunch at my apartment (they picked up Frances’) because goodness knows what Emmie would be up to. It was the perfect decision–Emmie was great until the very end and even took a series of naps on Ellen’s mom! It was just what I needed, and their visit just helped me feel so much better.

5) So this past week was Watchathon week (free premium on demand programming) if you have Xfinity On Demand, so with all of the time spent at our apartment… I watched the ENTIRETY of Girls. I had heard such good things about it from my podcasts that I wanted to check it out. It was a really interesting show. Lena Dunham does a fabulous job–there is just something as bout the show that is so outrageous yet so relatable, and the witticisms and nuances are just on point. Would I say it is like a Dowton Abbey, that I would watch over and over? I don’t think so. But it is like a Mad Men: brilliant but not as always enjoyable because you want to throttle half the characters. It is a show that challenges you without you really knowing. I’m really glad I saw it.

Best pajamas ever

This morning, I have Remicade, so Landon is going to watch Em while I get the good stuff. I am considering going to a new parents and baby enrichment and play class Tuesday, but it is in the middle of when Emmie usually gets super fussypants or is napping. So it is penciled in. And Alex’s parents come this weekend so that will be great! I’m also going to set up someone to clean the apartment. Seriously… 

Good luck and God speed to us all!

What is a TV show that was brilliant but complex in a way that kept you watching?

If you had to choose one TV channel for the rest of your life…

Would your rather look at the gorgeous building or look at the gorgeous building? 

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36 Comments

  • Reply Sarah Rosenblatt

    OMG I am DYING over Emmie’s PJs with the unicorn footies… so cute! I’m glad you’ve been getting her into some good routines, but sorry that you’ve been having such a rough time. I’m sure motherhood is no cakewalk, but it sounds like you’re doing an amazing job. <3
    And I'm glad you enjoyed Girls! I agree that the characters can be maddening sometimes, but I always loved that show for how authentically New Yorky it was.

    April 23, 2018 at 8:18 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You know I love it for that reason as well! Gives me my NYC fix, at least a little bit. And we’ll figure it out. Some how!

      April 30, 2018 at 8:32 pm
  • Reply Maureen

    Happy 3 months to Emmie! She picked her head up during tummy time which seems great!

    I hope you feel better Suzie and have my fingers crossed nothing is injured!

    April 23, 2018 at 8:31 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, Maureen!

      April 30, 2018 at 8:31 pm
  • Reply Julie Running in a Skirt

    Awwww girl! I’m so sorry you’ve had some pain. I hope it’s just your body adjusting to postpartum. Thinking about you!! xoxo
    Emmie is so sweet – hope the sleep training keeps going well. I know nothing about babies- but it sounds like a brilliant idea to me. 🙂

    April 23, 2018 at 8:46 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Girl, you know I am making this up as I go.

      April 30, 2018 at 8:30 pm
  • Reply Beth

    I was you last fall. Luckily baby boy is 9 months now and life is slowly getting less confusing. The biggest thing that helped me was getting out of the house regardless. I would make it a goal to go somewhere whether it would be mom/baby time, grocery store… and even if I had to cut it short/leave early/walk around with a fussy baby I would still try to go. That small feeling of accomplishment and leaving the house to see adults really did help me.

    April 23, 2018 at 8:47 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Beth, that is such a great point. I am honestly pretty fortunate, in that regard–having Ridley and not have a yard FORCES me out of the apartment. Even if we have to get creative! But I hope that Emmie will settle down at some point. Or at least be super happy instead of crying. Because laughter would at least be cute!

      April 30, 2018 at 8:30 pm
  • Reply Suzlyfe’s mommy, Clare

    TV show— that’s easy, it’s Grey’s Anatomy.
    I stopped for a few seasons, but once I could watch on my kindle when I had time-bingo! I still watch it and put it on when I’m doing the accounting work.
    Sometimes, I’ll go back and rewatch Alias—another old favorite.
    TV channel of choice? My kindle….
    And may I say- that baby is just precious!
    I miss my Chicago girls

    April 23, 2018 at 9:07 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Luckily for you, I don’t think Greys is ever going to end, lol

      April 30, 2018 at 8:28 pm
  • Reply Kimberly

    So, I’m a dork and would want INSP or CMT for the rest of my life. I feel ya on the unpredictability of life with a baby. I am someone who thrives on routine and structure so it was tough at first. But, after my first baby girl I went on to have two more baby girls . They are now 26, 24 and 20. Life is good! By the way, my youngest has UC and has started Remicade treatments. Crossing my fingers and my toes that it works for her.

    April 23, 2018 at 9:47 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Please keep me updated with how she is doing, Kimberly! All of my fingers and toes are crossed as well. As you know, Remicade has been amazing for me; I hope the same for your daughter!

      April 30, 2018 at 8:27 pm
  • Reply Sandra Laflamme

    Sharing with others can help so much with the depression/anxiety. I had severe post partum depression after both babies and it can be so hard. You will get through it but I so understand. My daughter (our first) was a very difficult baby and I had trouble nursing which exacerbated things. She was constantly hungry and so napping was almost non-existent. We sleep trained and it was the best decision I ever made. You need your time and your baby to sleep. You will find your new rhythm but I am sending so many hugs your way!!!!

    April 23, 2018 at 11:47 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you, Sandra! I know you understand on so many levels. But I also have the comfort that difficult kids can also turn out amazing (like yours!)

      April 30, 2018 at 8:26 pm
  • Reply Jamie

    I remember this season well (moreso with the twins). You are out of newbie mom-mode and it’s just HARD. Day-in-day-out HARD. I think you’re doing all you can and all the right things though, if that even helps to hear me say. You being vocal about it, seeing friends, talking to family. You know I love you.

    April 23, 2018 at 12:08 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I love you right back. SO MUCH

      April 30, 2018 at 8:25 pm
  • Reply Lindsay Cotter

    You are doing amazing friend! Be kind to your body (as you are doing) and breathe. I wish I could come make all the food for you while you play wit emmie and get some mama time. Happy 3 months to her! <3

    April 23, 2018 at 12:14 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Screw making food, just come over for a glass of wine!

      April 30, 2018 at 8:24 pm
  • Reply Heather Brown

    Literally getting my kids slepeing in their own room is THE BEST and helped me so much. I know what you mean about not having them sleeping on you and such but honestly doing this is SOOOO amazing for her. She’s going to learn self soothing and all that. I really wish you weren’t feeling any discomfort. Praying for you!

    April 23, 2018 at 1:22 pm
  • Reply Kat

    I’m sorry to hear about all of the physical and emotional struggles as of late. Situational depression is no joke but I’m glad you have it [mostly] figured out. Thank goodness for hubby’s who are always there to lend a hand [or in your case, voice!] to help ease us through it all.
    And yay for sweet Emmie! Happy 3 month old birthday sweet thing!

    April 23, 2018 at 4:57 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Why must our brains hate us? WHY

      April 30, 2018 at 8:23 pm
  • Reply Lisa - Mile by Mile

    I hope that your body is just adjusting to everything its been through and that nothing is injured! Happy 3 months to Emmie!

    April 23, 2018 at 5:44 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I hope so, too! We’ll see how it continues to do!

      April 30, 2018 at 8:22 pm
  • Reply MCM Mama Runs

    Sounds like things are going a bit better for you. Hang in there. I’ve BTDT with situational depression (and also survived PPD). It does get better as they grow, but those first months are challenging. I wish I lived close enough to come rock E for you.

    April 23, 2018 at 5:57 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I wish you lived closer for many reasons! xoxo

      April 30, 2018 at 8:22 pm
  • Reply San

    Ugh, I am sorry that you’ve been having a rough time… if it’s not one thing ,it’s another, eh? I really hope that you don’t have another injury.

    I loved Girls. You’re right, it was complex and uncomfortable, but also relatable. Another show that was brilliant and complex was “The Newsroom”. I hate that they cut the show.

    April 23, 2018 at 6:43 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Oh I’ve heard that show is amazing! I will have to try it!

      April 30, 2018 at 8:21 pm
  • Reply Laura

    I can’t imagine keeping a mini human alive, but I’m 100% impressed with you. Just think how miserable you’ll get to make her when she’s 16! HAHAHA!

    Never saw Girls… but I’m watching The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel right now and I LOVE it.

    P.S. I want my very own unicorn PJs!

    April 23, 2018 at 7:18 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I want those PJs too. I think we should get some in our size and wear them when picking her up from school as a teenager.

      April 30, 2018 at 8:15 pm
  • Reply Kristy from Southern In Law

    Ohh, Emmie just keeps getting cuter… and mama, you are doing an amazing job!! Looking after littles is tough and anxiety and injuries on top of that is crapola, but you’re doing it. Opening up about it all is so good though because there are so many other mamas who have been or are in your shoes. They say it takes a village to raise a child, but I think that village is really there to support the Mom! Big hugs to you!!

    April 24, 2018 at 6:07 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I agree! It really is so much harder than I thought it would be, and believe me, I didn’t think it would be easy!

      April 30, 2018 at 8:14 pm
  • Reply Ellen

    It was SO GOOD to see you and meet Emmie! You’re doing GREAT ❤️

    April 24, 2018 at 2:59 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I AM SO GLAD YOU CAME. It was awesomesauce

      April 30, 2018 at 8:14 pm
  • Reply Cora

    You are doing amazing. I really know nothing about being a mom but I’ve learned a huge amount more in this last year and know that there are difficulties I had never even considered. I know post partum depression is a real, real thing some mothers deal with. Not saying this is your exact situation, but just the feelings and struggles that come with trying to raise a baby and getting them – impossibly – into a cycle must be so exhausting. And ontop of that you love them beyond anything. And then ontop of THAT your own concerns and anxieties about your body pains and injuries. Oh my gosh so many feelings. I hope the sleeping begins to even out, that this reflux problem starts to get better again rather than worse, and that when you do feel it is right for you to get checked, that all is okay in your own body and spirit.

    Talking it out, getting help from friends and seeing people you love is going to be huge in this time. I’m so glad you had your lunch date with your two ladies, especially if Alex has been working more. Also…. three months!?!? Already!?! Love you Suz.

    April 25, 2018 at 7:18 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      LOVE YOU BACK. As you well know, our minds are amazing and powerful things, but they can be our greatest enemy as well as our best ally. And you want the best for your kid and your family, and it gets so frustrating when everything isn’t perfect (because you would think that everything should just want to be optimal, right?). But sometimes, optimal needs a nudge.

      April 30, 2018 at 8:12 pm

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