Oh hey there! Long time no chat! Let’s get caught up on life with a little Weekend Catch Up.
It’s been a hot minute, so no blog posts that you might have missed.
Weekend Catch Up 4/23
1) Emmie is officially 3 months old today! The past week and a half have been a bit rocky, as I think you all know. I admitted the struggle that I was having on instagram.
That anxiety attack, though about something seemingly small, became something far larger–like a musical crescendo, my anxiety and underlying depression grew and grew over the days. Feeding the flame? Emmie’s fussiness and my own physical discomfort, as well as the sleep training we are doing. Before everyone freaks out, we are only trying to introduce her to the crib, work on self soothing, and introduce a light nap structure to her day. Ironically, successfully getting her to nap also contributed to anxiety and depression because I didn’t know what to do with myself when she was asleep, and I couldn’t leave the apartment! #damnedifyoudo
I haven’t really admitted this to many beyond Alex, but I finally gave it up on IG on Saturday: since my injury last October and then the really violent rolling of my ankle in December, I have had 2 weeks of being totally pain and fancy free in my entire body. My body just hasn’t felt right. Something different bothers my every day, with the only consistencies being that something will hurt and that the discomfort will be somewhere in the cycle of same places.
I’ve been avoiding making an appointment because a) Emmie is unpredictable and b) I’m terrified of going in and being told I have yet another injury, especially when I have done next to nothing (yoga, some weights, and walking).
So the spectre of yet another injury as well as actual (though lesser) discomfort + fussy baby…. yep, hello, situational depression!
The good news is that since that post, I’ve done better overall. That doesn’t mean that I didn’t call Alex on the verge of tears and needing to hear his voice. But it does mean that overall, I’ve felt more positive and resilient.
2) Okay, so… Emmie is 3 months old today! How about i actually update you all on her?
Sleep training/crib training has overall gone well. Not a slam dunk, but she has had several nights where she has only woken up once, and by and larger when she goes down at night, she sleeps well and without needing much consoling once we put her down. Thank goodness, because if she wasn’t sleeping in addition to the fussiness… brain explosion.
I taught her to grab at things with both feet–like a clamp–and she has been having fun with that. She still hates tummy time, but she did REALLY well with it yesterday, so maybe there is hope!
One thing that has been a really unfortunate regression is the return of her spitting up/reflux and some tummy upset and gas. She had done so much better since I took out soy and dairy, with a relapse during her cold, but she is spitting up a bunch more now. Not as violently as before, but more frequently, making tummy time a delicate dance of scheduling.
3) I have reintroduced elliptical back into my activities (i haven’t had any discomfort during my short sessions) and Emmie’s naptime schedule as well as the need for her to sit up after feeding means that I have the perfect opportunity to get my 30 minutes in after her morning nap and following feeding. Then I whisk her upstairs, set her up in her rocker, and she watches me or beats at Skippy while I ellipticize. I play music out of my phone and talk or sing to her, and the time passes pretty quickly!
4) I haven’t gotten much Alex time of late–he was on call and has been working hard. But I got to spend time with one of my favorite people and her mom, who is also now officially one of my favorite people as well! Ellen and her mom came to Chicago for the weekend, so we did brunch at my apartment (they picked up Frances’) because goodness knows what Emmie would be up to. It was the perfect decision–Emmie was great until the very end and even took a series of naps on Ellen’s mom! It was just what I needed, and their visit just helped me feel so much better.
5) So this past week was Watchathon week (free premium on demand programming) if you have Xfinity On Demand, so with all of the time spent at our apartment… I watched the ENTIRETY of Girls. I had heard such good things about it from my podcasts that I wanted to check it out. It was a really interesting show. Lena Dunham does a fabulous job–there is just something as bout the show that is so outrageous yet so relatable, and the witticisms and nuances are just on point. Would I say it is like a Dowton Abbey, that I would watch over and over? I don’t think so. But it is like a Mad Men: brilliant but not as always enjoyable because you want to throttle half the characters. It is a show that challenges you without you really knowing. I’m really glad I saw it.
This morning, I have Remicade, so Landon is going to watch Em while I get the good stuff. I am considering going to a new parents and baby enrichment and play class Tuesday, but it is in the middle of when Emmie usually gets super fussypants or is napping. So it is penciled in. And Alex’s parents come this weekend so that will be great! I’m also going to set up someone to clean the apartment. Seriously…
Good luck and God speed to us all!
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