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2016 Year End Thoughts and Resolutions

What are your year end thoughts on 2016? Are you like me, and feel a little bit… unsure what to think? How are you taking this year into the next? 

2016 has been really weird, hasn’t it? I know that every year has highs, lows, and side-to-sides, but I feel like 2016 was just… bizarre. As if everything that went “right” was to make up for something else. And then a monkey wrench or two thrown in there for good measure, and to keep things interesting. 

Did you play the hand that you were dealt this year? Looking back on my 2016 thoughts and resolutions moving forward. @suzlyfe

Last year, my New Year’s “Resolution” was to play the cards I was dealt. I decided to focus on priorities, rather than goals, and I think, to a large extent, I have been able to accomplish both of those intentions.

As I look back on this clusterf interesting year, I realize that it might not have been exactly the year that I wanted, but it was the year that was necessary for the next phase of my life. 

This year? I had to learn to be a little less selfish. I had to learn that it wasn’t all about me. To be happy for people who worked hard, believed, and received–first when I lost my job, then when I DNS’d Boston, when certain business scenarios didn’t go my way, and more. I witnessed the power of good sportsmanship in action.

I learned to be even more introspective, to listen to my body and yes, to listen to mind and when NOT to listen. Not so much on an intuition left, but rather to realize when something is up, something that I cannot ignore. My anxiety and depression issues crept up on me–I was so focused on my body that I didn’t realize how much my mind was in jeopardy. 

Here’s how my Year in Running played out.

I learned (again) the power of communication. The need to reach out before you break.

I learned the resiliency of my body in a new way–not just with regards to Crohn’s Disease–but also the fragility of it, and how even the littlest trigger can offset the precarious balance. But I also realized just how strong I was in the process. 

I got plenty of practice for the non-running times to come, and it happened in such a way that now that I will soon be on forced rest again, this time the rest will seem like a cakewalk because I know that it will all be fine (and that I can walk!). 

I learned the power of a puppy cuddle, and I realized how much I really want to be a mom. 

I got my husband back, and not a moment too soon. Though he has been busy, he has been much more accessible (by phone, text) and that has really helped me with my various issues this year. But I also had to deal with certain situations on my own. 

When looked at through a broad, general lens, I can’t say that this year has really truly been so different than years past. But the intricacies and minutiae of the events that occurred in 2016, the relationships and people that I hold close and the evolution of those relationships as time has gone by during this year, they have changed me in a rather profound way.

I’m still #HotMessExpress, but I am learning that being #HotMessExpress doesn’t have to define you. You can get a lot done while being a hot mess. You learn how to triage, prioritize, and move forward with some, put others on the back burner because guess what, right now just isn’t the time.

I greet this new year in a state of tension: on the one hand, I have a clear directive, but that clear directive throws many other aspects of my life into a holding pattern of purgatory and what ifs. 

What I do know is that I plan to reinstate my Toast to the New Year from last year: May we play, to our best ability, the hand that we are dealt. And may we bet so much that we understand the risk, but not so much that we can’t play another. 

But if you are bad luck, stay the heck away from my table.

Quick Note: I’ve not been feeling well the past few days, so I am rather behind in responding to comments here on the blog and on other forms of social media. Rest assured that I see the comments, and that I am ever so appreciative! I just don’t think that now would be the best time to respond.

Thank you to Amanda for Thinking out Loud!

How about you? What are your feelings about 2016?

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49 Comments

  • Reply Megan @ Skinny Fitalicious

    Hope you feel better soon girl!
    Megan @ Skinny Fitalicious recently posted…15 Healthy Christmas Breakfast RecipesMy Profile

    December 22, 2016 at 5:11 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank you lovely!

      December 24, 2016 at 1:45 pm
  • Reply Heather @Lunging Through Life

    Hope you feel better; can’t be sick for Christmas! I feel like every year we go into it with high hopes and goals but every year seriously changes and no matter what we’re dealt a different hand, and that we have to power through. 2016 has taught me a lot, as well, and I never thought I’d be here back in January. Lots has come up and I’ve dealt with but t here’s still things I’m learning.
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    December 22, 2016 at 5:38 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      We will never finish learning, and that is both fortunate and just flat annoying. I’m excited for your 2017–another super exciting year for you!

      December 24, 2016 at 1:44 pm
  • Reply Jamie@TheMomGene

    This is my new mantra: “You can get a lot done while being a hot mess.”

    December 22, 2016 at 6:29 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Hey, it’s the truth 😀

      December 24, 2016 at 1:43 pm
  • Reply Ellen @ My Uncommon Everyday

    All I have to say about 2017 is that I intend on it being better than 2016, since 2016 was quiiite the rough year for me.
    Take it as easy as you can and FEEL BETTER. ❤️
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    December 22, 2016 at 6:34 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I think we both need a better 2017. Bootless, crutchless, please. LOVE YOU

      December 24, 2016 at 1:43 pm
  • Reply Lisa @ Mile by Mile

    I hope you feel better before the holidays! 2016 was an interesting year and I have no idea what 2017 will bring. I think this year has taught me that you can really never know what to expect, and so Im trying to keep that in mind as we move into the new year.
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    December 22, 2016 at 7:04 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I agree with you there. The only predictable part of life is that it is unpredictable!

      December 24, 2016 at 1:42 pm
  • Reply Morgan @ Morgan Manages Mommyhood

    Honestly, you’ve been through so much more than most this year, and still kept it together better than I ever would in a million years with so much grace and thankfulness. You deserve 2017 to be all you’ve ever wished for!
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    December 22, 2016 at 7:09 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I think we all deserve a great year to come!

      December 24, 2016 at 1:41 pm
  • Reply Wendy@Taking the Long Way Home

    #HotMessExpress? I was a passenger on that train as well. This year was full of highs and lows for me too. You and I seem to be living parallel lives. I’m hoping for a little moderation for 2017. Smooth. Even keel. Please.
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    December 22, 2016 at 7:15 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      That would be lovely.

      December 24, 2016 at 1:41 pm
  • Reply Heather @ Polyglot Jot

    I always appreciate you sharing your struggles on here. It’s amazing how many people are encouraged and feel hopeful and also know that they’re not alone in their own struggles. I hope that you feel better and that 2017 is a year of happiness and you reaching goals you never thought you’d reach.
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    December 22, 2016 at 8:34 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I’m glad that I am able to reach others who are also working through the ins and outs of life. I hope that we can all support and encourage each other. We aren’t alone!

      December 24, 2016 at 1:34 pm
  • Reply Runwright

    I like that #HotMessExpress definition. I guess that makes me one too.
    I definitely didn’t do all I wanted in 2016 but I met a few of my goals and still working on some others. I am excited about getting more done in 2017.
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    December 22, 2016 at 8:43 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Well, if you were still able to feel accomplished in some aspect, imagine how 2017 will go!

      December 24, 2016 at 1:32 pm
  • Reply Cora

    You know what? I think we are all #hotmessexpress at least in some form (I am alllll sorts of hot mess), but it is how we choose to show up in that mess, and say “I am here and I’m not perfect but I am learning and trying my damnedest” that will get us where we are supposed to be. You’ve learned a hell of a lot this year, and you’ve used your experiences to learn and propel you forward into the new experiences that are in store for you in this next year to come. I think this is a wonderful tribute and reflection to how you showed 2016 all that you are made off. Feel better soon <3
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    December 22, 2016 at 9:03 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thanks, lady. I’m glad to have a partner in being a hotmessexpress 😀 We make it look good.

      December 24, 2016 at 1:32 pm
  • Reply Emily

    I’ll join you on admitting that I am also still a mess that needs lots of tweaking, fixing, and growth, and I’m so thankful for sanctification throughout my life. 🙂 I’m thankful to see you grow Susie, and I’m thankful for sustaining grace this whole crazy year!
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    December 22, 2016 at 9:44 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thanks for the opportunity to grow, to keep growing, and to be thankful for it. Perspective is everything, Emily!

      December 24, 2016 at 1:31 pm
  • Reply Michelle

    As always, thanks for keeping it real. I admire you for being able to keep consistent with blogging with all you’ve got going on. Reminds me….I need to post. You know my feelings (for the most part) in regards to 2016. Merry Christmas, my friend.
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    December 22, 2016 at 9:57 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      2016 has been quite a year, hasn’t it? But I have to say, you have come into and out of it swinging. You should be so proud of you and your family.

      December 24, 2016 at 1:29 pm
  • Reply Lisa @ RunWiki

    Here’s to a new fresh year full of possibilities! Don’t ever worry, or feel pressure to respond to my comments. I love and adore you and I would never, ever want to add to your stress. I comment because I find your posts interesting and it’s a way for me know what you are feeling and doing. It is about priorities and as your friend I want you to take care of yourself first and foremost. Hugs and Happy Holidays!
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    December 22, 2016 at 9:58 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      That’s why I waited, I assumed that you all would understand! LOVE YOU

      December 24, 2016 at 1:28 pm
  • Reply Michael Anderson

    2016 has been a bizarre year … thank you for sharing all of your ups and downs.

    Within our family we similarly had many ups and downs, with Lisa and the boys having health struggles and also personal highs …

    For me … aside from the election drama, I have nothing but good stuff – job better than ever, great transition to ’empty nest’ for Lisa and I, great health and running and so on.

    So it is weird … because I can’t separate my personally solid year from the struggles of so many people around me, the way-too-many people I grew up with who have died or are struggling with their health …

    So yeah, 2017.

    December 22, 2016 at 10:03 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I totally understand that. That has to be somewhat hard to reconcile in your mind. I hope that 2017 will be even for us all!

      December 24, 2016 at 1:27 pm
  • Reply Ange // Cowgirl Runs

    I’m so with you on 2016 being bizarre and weird. Not all bad, but more of an UGH feeling about it.

    And, please, you take care of you first. xo.
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    December 22, 2016 at 11:42 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Doing just that xoxo

      December 24, 2016 at 1:22 pm
  • Reply Laura @ This Runner's Recipes

    I hope you feel better soon! Sending you lots of hugs and good thoughts. Don’t worry about responding to my comments – just know that I’m here for you and want you to take care of yourself before all else. Take in all of those puppy snuggles you can!
    Here’s to a fresh new year! My theory is that crummy or stressful years are often followed by good years.
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    December 22, 2016 at 12:16 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Let’s hope so! And let’s hope that good years aren’t followed by crummy year s:D

      December 24, 2016 at 1:21 pm
  • Reply kat

    You’ve been through so much and come so far this year – you really should be proud of yourself and what you’ve done. I don’t wish any ill-will towards you in 2017, but I know if there is anyone who could handle a hinky situation well it would be you <3
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    December 23, 2016 at 7:26 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You better not be inviting that! lol

      December 24, 2016 at 1:05 pm
  • Reply Julie @ Running in a Skirt

    This year really has been a rough one for me too. Kind of glad for a fresh start next year!
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    December 23, 2016 at 8:50 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Sending you so much love. Hopefully we will both have a change of luck this coming year.

      December 24, 2016 at 1:05 pm
  • Reply Suzy

    Oh, that line really resonated with me: I’ve learned how to listen to my mind and body and also when NOT to listen. YOU ARE SO WISE way beyond your years my friend! xo
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    December 23, 2016 at 9:04 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Well, it might just be all the whisky I’m currently drinking…

      December 24, 2016 at 1:04 pm
  • Reply lacey@fairytalesandfitness

    Hope you feeling better soon before the holiday weekend! Enjoy time relaxing and spending time w friends and family. I do not know what this New year will bring but hopefully something good, time will tell.
    lacey@fairytalesandfitness recently posted…Holiday CheerMy Profile

    December 23, 2016 at 10:42 am
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You achieved so much this year–I can’t wait to see what you get into this coming year 😀

      December 24, 2016 at 12:52 pm
  • Reply Alyssa

    I learned the importance of communication this year too. Even though I don’t like talking about the hard stuff with people sometimes, it’s so important (and I learned the hard way from this) also yes- puppy cuddles > everything

    December 23, 2016 at 5:34 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Why can’t we just cuddle with puppies, period?

      December 24, 2016 at 12:48 pm
  • Reply Kristy from Southern In Law

    It sounds like whilst 2016 wasn’t amazing – it was a year of growth and learning! Sometimes we just have to go through the not so great years to appreciate the great ones even more.

    Communication is SO important… and puppy cuddles fix everything.
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    December 23, 2016 at 7:06 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      You said it 😀

      December 24, 2016 at 12:47 pm
  • Reply Jen

    Here’s to a fantastic 2017! I’m not really sure about my goals for this next year, guess i should start thinking about that soon 😉
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    December 24, 2016 at 12:44 pm
  • Reply Sue

    Suzy, 2015 was a terrible year & 2016 particularly stellar for me either! Hopefully 2017 is a kinder gentler year with some positive outcomes and just happiness overall.

    I know that 2017 is going to be a fabulous year for you and your family. You have had your share of ups and downs and you always come out swinging! You are so selfless Suzy. You share your experiences with us so we can grow and learn from your struggles and not many people would do that. I have learned so much from you and for that I am grateful. Here is to 2017 bringing you everything you wish for and more.

    BTW I am so excited for you and your journey you are about to begin.

    December 26, 2016 at 1:29 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      I know that you had a rough rough 2015. I am sorry to have fallen out of touch with you and didn’t know about your stellar 2016! Dinner sometime to catch up? I would LOVE to see you!

      December 27, 2016 at 4:57 pm
  • Reply San

    How is it that the challenging times always leave us with some lessons learned? I hope that this is always the silver-lining in every curve ball that life throws our way!
    I hope you’re feeling better and had a great holiday weekend.

    December 27, 2016 at 4:32 pm
    • Reply suzlyfe

      Thank goodness that we learn something, otherwise, what would be the point!!

      December 27, 2016 at 4:58 pm

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