1 2 3 My Secret is Out

Well, it is time for a big reveal. I’ve been keeping something to myself, something that I’ve known about for a while; finally, I feel comfortable telling you about it. My Secret is out!

And my secret is a big one.

But it is also a dream come true. 

I’m going to cut to the chase and rip the Band Aid Adhesive Bandage right off and come clean.



Yoshi is arriving 1/23 (get it… 1..2..3?).

A brief timeline:

  • I had my Frozen Embryo Transfer (which I ran down to, lol) May 7
  • We found out I had a positive hCG test (via email! Another story!) the Monday after I arrived home from Tahoe (who says that you have to stay totally quiet?) 
  • We had our first ultrasound June 1 and saw the little blob and heartbeat for the first time! At this point I was 6 weeks and 2 days. But we also got some not so great news: I had a subchorionic hematoma (more to come on that), which raised my miscarriage risk. Basically BEST NEWS EVER and then SLAP. Then Alex and I went and got Roti 😀
  • I had my medical emergency two days later. I’ll go into greater detail later, but it did have to do with the baby–I started bleeding, and it wasn’t brown spotting (which all you mama’s know is generally considered ok). I was convinced I had lost the baby, and I don’t think I’ve ever been more distraught, then drained, and then determined in my life. A whole nother post on the emotions I experienced on that day. But they advised me to go super quiet and not to travel.
  • I continued to get ultrasounds weekly for the next few weeks at my infertility specialist’s office. At the first ultrasound post hemorrhage, the heartrate was a bit low, and that of course increased the anxiety! I also realized during this time that I needed to decrease my stress, and that meant changing my schedule at the gym.
  • June 22 was my first appointment with our OB/GYN! Both Alex and I really liked him, we have several friends who are with the practice, and we feel really good about everything.
  • I didn’t get to see any pictures or anything until 7/13, when we went in for our genetics testing and first trimester screening (to check for Downs and other potential genetic conditions). Yoshi has a profile! Last we saw of him/her, there were only blobs and limb fins, and now there are arms and a neck and a nose! Also, in true “like his/her mama” fashion, Yoshi didn’t want to cooperate and get into position and then was wiggle worming all around.
  • And now, I am 14 weeks along! We have our next OB/GYN appointment today. 

I’ll have some updates on various life things, but my thinking with regards to covering this pregnancy is to make it part of my blog like running, or food, or Crohn’s is a part of my blog: it is a part of my life. As of right now, I am planning on relay the funny stories, the struggles, and the fun milestones, but I don’t see this becoming a pregnancy blog, though I would expect a few pregnancy-related posts coming up, if for no other reason than that I have so much to catch you up on! Like my new food proclivities…

Alright, I think that is enough excitement for one day. I am going for a run, then meeting a friend, who also struggled to conceive (for years!) but now has a beautiful baby girl, for breakfast with her little munchkin, then I have work, then our OB appointment! 

Have an awesome week everyone!

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So much love to all of you. Thank you so much for your kindness, support, and love.

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  1. Omg! Omg! Omg!!!!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhh! Congratulations Susie! I’m in shock/elated/over the moon/happy dancing for you! I’m so excited for you & Alex!!! You’re a good secret keeper too – I don’t know how you did it! I can’t wait to follow along through the pregnancy journey with you. And my offer to be your nanny still stands 🙂
    Sending all my love your way momma ❤️❤️❤️

  2. CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!! When I read the beginning of your post, I actually cheered. Then teared up. Wishing you much, much health and happiness. I am so happy for you and Alex, Suze! Xoxo

  3. So now I can FINALLY say “congratulations” PUBLICLY and stop editing my comments? CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You will be/already are an amazing mama and Yoshi is lucky to have you. I am so ready for this kid to meet the world. I’ll send a welcome wagon with diapers to last you through the first year (because diapers break the bank). P.S. Maybe don’t read my article today. Let’s just get you past delivery ; )

  4. YAY Susie I’m so happy for you!!! I was wondering why there wasn’t an update on here in a while 😉 so sneaky! As a side note, not sure if you’ve mentioned it before, but have you watched Friends from College yet? Might be too early for you to think some things are funny, but IVF is a big plot line in the first few episodes that I watched. It’s kind of heart breaking but also funny. I think you would like it (but like I said, might be too early for you to find some things funny right now! #TOOSOON)

  5. Aww, Suzzzz!! Oh my goodness!!! Congratulations sweetie, I am just positively thrilled for you, Alex, and Yoshi. Awwwww! I can’t even *imagine* holding in that secret for that long, especially with what you’ve gone through so far… Ahhhhh I still can’t get over it, eeeeee congrats!!!

  6. I’m so so so happy for you! My daughter was born May 7 so it must be a great day! ❤️❤️❤️

  7. I am so excited for you and Alex. I just told Dave and he is excited for you too. I told avery, but she just flapped her arms around.
    Eeeeee. So excited for you!!



    More flowery words full of love will come later. Right now I’m a tad frozen with excitement. And happiness. Oh my god. So much happiness for you. SO MUCH HAPPINESS.

  9. SO EXCITED! I am excited to follow pregnancy via Suzlyfe. I’m sure it will involve ups and downs and many laughs as with all things Suzlyfe. 🙂 Wishing you and Alex much love and happiness.

  10. Oh yeah! Congratulations to both of you – life, and love, finds a way! So happy and excited for you …

    And yes, I know that this is only the first step in this long journey, but it is an important one!

  11. Finally, THANK YOU!!!!!!
    Can I now tell my friends?
    For me to keep my mouth closed, has not been easy!
    Eric and I are excited for all three of you (plus Zoe and Ridley)
    Love you,

  12. I am so, so, so, happy and excited for you and Alex! I’ve been hoping since you’ve been quiet on the pregnancy front lately, but this is just the best news ever!

  13. Best birthday ever! (It’s my birthday ). So much love to you on this journey. Motherhood is absolutely amazing. So happy for you and Alex, and a little blessing!

  14. Congratulations!!! I could not be more happy for you two 🙂 🙂 This is such great news!!! Glad you’re doing well!!

  15. Congratulations!!!! Thank you for allowing your readers to follow you through this process and share a little in the struggles and the excitement

    • Thank you for being so excited and supportive, Sarah! I hope that taking you on the journey will be inspiring for those struggling as well as a chuckle for those who have been there!

  16. I could not be more happy for you!!!! I was wondering on a few posts that popped up on my Facebook what was going on. Was going to follow up but then didn’t want to seem nosy justy concerned. So so happy for you!!

  17. Congrats!!!! This is the best news ever. Now take good care of yourself. BTW, I had that “implantation” bleeding for both pregnancies. Which meant I had multiple ultrasounds. But all’s well that end’s well. I was never so happy to hold those munchkins…

  18. OH BOY OH BOY OH BOY!!! Seriously praising the Lord for such amazing news on a Monday morning. I thought that was the news when I saw the title of your blog post, but I smiled SO big when I saw that it was the good news. <3 <3 <3

  19. Old friend of your Mom– congrats! Just stay healthy. I had similar issues 35 years ago and was on bedrest. Two major bleeds but always a closed cervix. He is 35 now..Duke grad….no health issues of any kind, and two subsequent pregnancies went smoothly. Best wishes!

  20. This is incredible girl. I’m so beyond happy for you. I know you and Alex are going to be the coolest parents on the block. <3

  21. Big congratulations to you! I’m sorry the beginning was so stressful, but you know kids are and endless source of worry (and joy!) so it’s all part of becoming a mom. <3

  22. So incredibly happy for you both!!! And as far as writing about pregnancy — I had no idea I would have SO much to say and share about it until I got pregnant! You should write about it as often or as little as you want, and naturally it will probably be a lot! And we want to hear it all! Yay for you!!

    • I’m goign to try to keep it balanced–I’ve been writing about it for so long, it seems! You were pretty mum–so you’ve got a lot more ground to cover!

  23. I am so happy for you and Alex. I saw the instagram video and had to do a double take! YAY!

    I wish nothing but the best sticky baby pregnancy vibes to you and Yoshi. <3

  24. Yay Yoshi!!!!!!!! I haven’t been on here in awhile and I happened to see an update on Facebook and I’m so stinking happy I clicked!!!!! Congratulations, from the bottom of my heart. I’ve been rooting for you all along. Rock on, Yoshi!

  25. SERIOUSLY. I AM SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO happy for you! SOOOOOO HAPPY and you also give me faith. Now, don’t go thinking I actually want kids – but I do want to give kids to my husband —- so you give me faith that I might be able to do that one day!!

  26. OMG, Suzy, I am SO flipping excited for you and Alex! This is just the BEST news ever. Congrats, congrats, congrats to you both on your growing family. Love and hugs headed your way. XOXO